Caffeinated Cogitation

A Second Innings

2008-04-07T22:46:00.003+05:30

I believe the time is right to justify the title of this post

Only the venue has changed now ... http://www.thelaststageofavarice.blogspot.com

You see I do not wish to spoil the sanctity of this blog.

Feels good to be back ...

Weird sentences ... Should suffice for now

Goodnight
A.G

Post Number 200

2007-04-08T23:16:00.000+05:30

It is 10:55 PM and I find myself typing what just might be the last post this blog may see.

I've had the honour of being a part of F.L.I.R.T.We've had our share of ups and downs; big ones, small ones. We've had it hard, We've had it easy. We've lost at places where we should have won and we've won at places where we should have lost.

What matters, for sure, is the simple .... Oh I do not want to spoil the sanctity of the emotion by spelling it out .... the simple ... feel ... of being there. Performing. For everyone ... for no one. For us. Just being there, on stage … at practice, with people who I regard no less than brothers, comrades in war.

Have you had the feeling of being in perfect harmony with everything? When you know nothing in the world could change the way you feel. Perhaps, then, you might know what we go through so many times.

I doubt if we would have been the same people had we not been a part of F.L.I.R.T
All I can say is that I owe a lot to these four individuals. I wouldn't be the same without you. No doubt about it.

Off the top of my mind ...

Jha - Thanks for arranging girls for the dances EVERY SINGLE TIME !You're Don Juan ! Plus plus plus ... I haven't seen anyone survive a 10foot free fall and then continue performing as if nothing's happened ;)

Sobby - Thank you for always keeping the mood light during practice and in general. Thanks for thinking as a team instead of just an individual.

Mani - Thanks for saying NO to all those girls ;) You know what I mean ! Thanks for being my duet dance partner. Couldn't have found a better one. HELL, I wouldn't WANT a better one !

Saurabh - Thanks for 'Khoon Chala'. I'm still hoping you turn up for at least one practice on time :)

Of course there are at least a dozen other points for each of them but I cannot afford to mention them all. I'd have to type for a few days to exhaust the entire list.

It's been 4 years now and every moment spent together is worth its weight in gold. None of us will ever forget what we've had for 4 years. The ups and downs, the frustration, the practice sessions the sleepless nights the kaleidoscope of emotions. Each and every one of them. Without exception.

We've been to the edge financially, mentally, physically and emotionally and you know what? Life begins at the edge.

They say hope is an asylum of the weak. Hope is what we've had to bank on for a better part of our first year. Hoping to make people stand up and take notice. Hoping for that glisten in peoples' eyes when they say F.L.I.R.T Hoping to be good enough. Hoping to feel important.

You are stronger beyond your wildest imagination. Believe it.

Don't let people tell you it cannot be done ... It isn't never ... it's just long periods of not yet.

Don't let people tell you that you might not be good enough ... Reality is an illusion ... only dreams are real.

Don't let people tell you to quit ... they cannot see the world through your eyes.

Don't let people tell you that you might embarrass yourself trying to achieve your goals ... there are worse things.

This is YOUR life.

Live it.

F.L.I.R.T ... Forever

Goodnight
A.G

The Final Frontier

2007-03-19T00:10:00.000+05:30

Rendezvous ’06 – IIT Delhi

PECfest ’07 - PEC

Saturnalia ’07 - Thapar

The trilogy is complete.

Goodnight
A.G

Hoping Against Hope

2007-03-18T02:56:00.000+05:30

Saturnalia ’07 will see us performing in the group dance event tomorrow.For the first time in four years, I believe, we aren’t ready.

Let’s see what transpires …

Goodnight
A.G

Silent Lucidity

2007-03-13T01:00:00.000+05:30

When will I learn that I’m going to have an excruciatingly tough time in this world?
My toughest years lie ahead of me and I see them approaching.

Standing on the edge … waiting to embrace them with open arms …

Goodnight
A.G

Time Out

2007-03-09T23:07:00.000+05:30

I need a break from life. Urgently. Respite, however, is not imminent on the horizon.
Ahh ... life as usual

Goodnight
A.G

Time Well Spent?

2007-03-04T23:33:00.000+05:30

I’ve spent the weekend trying to make an MJ solo.It is way harder than everybody thinks it is.I’m not talking about the Dangerous routine. It’s more of the original digital dancing that he does.The Gloved One has the moves alright :)

I just suppose I'm getting too old for this (snicker)
Anyway, nothing of great significance has transpired over the weekend. Holi has come and gone and I am dry as ever.

I think it appropriate to mention here that I have just used my first smiley in a blog post.

Lame, but true.

I shall take leave.
There’s work to be done.

Goodnight
A.G

Expert Systems

2007-02-28T12:34:00.000+05:30

I have just returned home after attempting an Expert Systems exam. Rest assured, I have written much on the same but the value of my writings in terms of marks shall be revealed only next week. My ES/SLLP book has been reported lost and unlike others I do not seem to care.
What I do care about right now are more important things in life … like Maggi and Pepsi.
I shall depart to devour the same.

This is a good time to mention that Ambica Verma looks almost exactly like Elaine Benis (from Seinfeld) when she used to have curly hair (Ms. Benis , I mean). Both of them even have the same pair of glasses !

Until next time …

Goodnight (though illogical here)
A.G

Semester Eight

2007-02-20T22:26:00.000+05:30

This has been another typical semester in the land of wheat, a petrol pump and an engineering college – Bhaddal.

We have teachers who have in their possession certain characteristics that … well … set them apart from your average teacher.

We have subjects where no teachers have been allotted. The ones who have been allotted seem uninterested in conducting lectures.

Our Expert Systems lecturer seems to enter the classroom believing that the entire building is on fire.
He walks all over the place speaking at length on his subject in what I shall describe to be a heterogeneous blend of the English and Punjabi languages.
He calls out to people for answering his questions by a quick and sharp raise of the hand which appears to be an attempt to levitate the person in question.
Once ten minutes of his lecture have passed and he has finally finished banging into furniture the sense of urgency in his nature seems to absent itself in its entirety.

Our Environment Science teacher seems to think Aseem Gill is the only student in class.It’s almost like I’m under the spotlight all the time. Whether I’m noting down the lecture or whiling away my time doing nothing I keep getting the feeling of being watched.
Group X would know what I mean.

Then we have FLAT. I do not understand the meaning of those tiny circles and the null values that everybody writes on the connecting nodes.

Oh and Gurpreet, I know you told me not to mention the discussion on the blog and guess what … I won’t

In return I only ask off you to become my slave for life. Muahaha @ that.

Geetanjali … Your assignment is safe and is in the hands of IP. I apologize for any undue tension you might have borne because of Mr. Sahi and I. I must admit, though, that we (IP included) found it extremely funny and entertaining.

I shall end this post by taking my hat off to our new principal Mr. H.S Shaan.

They say that a man’s character is tested in trying times.

Mr. Shaan just passed with flying colours.One man standing up AND holding his own in front of a group of blood thirsty final year students.I’ve seen the so called best of the best staff members (both past and present) falter there.
Take a bow.

Goodnight
A.G

On The Burning Cross ...

2007-02-18T21:28:00.000+05:30

Crucified … for no fault of mine again. I can almost feel the nails being driven in.

Resurrection doesn’t seem imminent in the near future.

Goodnight
A.G

Crap

2007-02-16T22:25:00.000+05:30

People, it seems, liked what we had to offer at PECFest ’07. We now have official requests to teach people the western style of dancing.

I sometimes wonder … How do you teach people to dance?

We simply practice our routines and moves enough times so that our bodies are left with no choice but to follow suit. Dancing, however, is something much more than that. People figure it out for themselves, Some sooner than others but everybody does. Patience, it seems, is a virtue uncommon enough to be valued.

Michael Jackson once said that the biggest mistake people make while dancing is that they start thinking. … 1…2…3…4… Dance while you’re dancing. True.

One of the best and most effective ways, at least according to me, are practicing by yourself. No one but you and a mirror or your own shadow (candle light).

Simply try and move the way you wish to see yourself moving. It looks extremely embarrassing at times but the results are almost as big, if not bigger, than the risk undertaken.

Here’s another practical one by MJ – The greatest education in the world is watching the masters at work.

Anyway … much has happened in time gap between this post and the previous one and I, as is habitual with me now, do not bother to type it all out.

The PECFest ’07 performances, as captured on video, are average or a maybe just a notch above average (which equals poor).

I have enrolled for a .NET course along with Mr. Sahi. I’ve researched about the possibilities of coding on this platform and there’s enough here to satisfy my evil designs.

This reminds me of something closely linked …. Youtube Grabber is software and NOT a virus.

Trust me, I do not have enough time on my hands to send viruses to each person individually. I’d much rather crack your passwords! Muaha @ that.

That was a geeky joke.

Oh and lest I forget … HELP ME OUT WITH F.L.A.T!!! (and SLLP too while you’re at it).

Lastly, the Water Computer has been invented at MIT.

http://alumni.media.mit.edu/~paulo/courses/howmake/mlfabfinalproject.htm

@ Mr. Berry I know it is against your will that I’m posting technical news here but I cannot help it at times. Moreover, the password to this blog is known only to me and therefore only I possess the ability to decide what goes on.

Another Muaha @ that.

Enough doodling. That should be enough crap for everybody to handle.

Goodnight
A.G

Making Memories Of Us

2007-02-13T23:36:00.000+05:30

I'm gonna be here for you baby
I'll be a man of my own word
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard
I wanna sleep with you forever
And I wanna die in your arms
In a cabin by a meadow where the wild bees swarm

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us

I wanna honor your mother
And I wanna learn from your pa
I wanna steal your attention like a bad outlaw
I wanna stand out in a crowd for you
A man among men
I wanna make your world better than it's ever been

We'll follow the rainbow
Wherever the four winds blow
And there'll be a new day
Comin' your way
I'm gonna be here for you from now on
This you know somehow
You've been stretched to the limits but it's alright now

And I'm gonna make you a promise
If there's life after this
I'm gonna be there to meet you with a warm, wet kiss

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust makin' memories of us
And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll win your trust makin memories of us

Goodnight
A.G

What If I'm right?

2007-02-10T23:52:00.000+05:30

You'll take me on a journey
And be there till the end
It won't be an uphill struggle
On you I can depend

You promised me a dream home
With roses round the door
You'll cover me in diamonds
There's nothing I want more
And
You'll be strong
And you'll turn me on

But I've got my doubts and what if I'm right?
You'll be true and be faithful too
But I've got my doubts and what if I'm right?
What if I'm right?

'coz if the rain starts falling
You'll protect me with your coat
And you'll always tape the football
And let me watch my soap

You'll always be as handsome
And your weight will never gain
And when I give birth to our children
I will feel no pain
And
You'll bring me flowers

And you'll bring the showers

But I've got my doubts and what if I'm right?
You'll say I'm thin and bring the washing in
But I've got my doubts and what if I'm right?
What if I'm right?

You'll always keep the magic
The tender love and care
And when you need to change the light bulb
You wont hand me the chair
And when we're tired of the city
And we find a country home
You'll sell your vinyl records
And go get us a loan

You'll be my sympathetic lover
And won't steal the covers
But I've got my doubts and what if I'm right?
You won't forsake me
Your mother won't hate me
But I've got my doubts and what if I'm right?
You'll be strong
And you'll turn me on
But I've got my doubts and what if I'm right?
You'll be true
And be faithful too
But I've got my doubts and what if I'm right?
What if I'm right?

Goodnight
A.G

PECFest '07 - Groovz

2007-02-10T13:13:00.000+05:30

Prophecy fulfilled.

Goodnight
A.G

PECFest '07

2007-02-08T23:37:00.000+05:30

F.L.I.R.T live ...

Venue: PEC Main Stage

Time: 6:00 P.M

Be there.

Goodnight
A.G

The Resonance of Silence

2007-02-05T00:27:00.000+05:30

Why can things not be like they were 15 years ago?
Would you undo everything if you knew what I'd have to go through all this while?
It still kills me to see you like this.
I've been OK. Just ... scarred.
None of this has ever been my doing. I wonder why I'm going through this. If only you could see it for yourselves ...

More than angry words I hate this silence
It's getting so loud
Well I want to scream
But bitterness has silenced these emotions
It's getting hard to breathe
So tell me isn't happiness
Worth more than a gold diamond ring?
I'm willing to do anything
To calm the storm in my heart
I've never been the praying kind
But lately I've been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe

The road I'm walking on doesn't seem to be going anywhere
That's what makes the journey worthwhile
I prefer silence over words
I prefer solitude over company
I prefer a straight face over a smile
I am selfish and I'm proud of the same
I'm all I've ever had
I'm all I've ever needed
My world crashes around me for no fault of mine
I've somehow managed to put the shattered pieces together every single time up to this day
You wouldn't know
I wouldn't let you

I'm walking into darkness ...

And I'm completely at home with the thought

Goodnight

A.G

Rolling Back

2007-01-24T23:20:00.001+05:30

Something's wrong.

The unfortunate part is that I know exactly what it is.

I'm left with no choice but to revert to an earlier principle.
I should've known ... I was right all along.

Goodnight
A.G

Top of the World

2007-01-11T03:47:00.000+05:30

It's a funny feeling ... Ahhh ............ falling .....endlessly ....... into nowhere ...

We're at the top of the world,
you and I.
We've got alot of time
and it sure feels right.
Cause you reached in your pocket
and pulled out a pass
that says you can take me anywhere.


Sha la la la.
Sha la la la la la la.


We're on the top of the world,
here tonight.
We've got alot of time
and it sure feels right.
Cause I'm up here running behind you.
I'm up here running in repeat.


We're at the top of the world,
you and I.
We've got alot of time
and it sure feels right.
Cause you reached in your pocket
and pulled out a pass

Goodnight
A.G

A Wasted Break

2007-01-10T01:01:00.000+05:30

I shall resort to a phrase hackneyed by me ... It is I who is back.

I, against my will, and more so my nature, am preoccupied with seemingly insurmountable tasks. I seem to be busy trying to be in multiple places at once. 2007, I hate you.

I'm back to Chandigarh for good AND I dodged death by a whisker today.

Mr Harsh Dhand has a percentile of 99.9 and he's decided not to take up his MBA degree with any of the IIMs. St. John's College beckons you see.

I'd love to waste more of my (and your) time but I'll stop here and go back to work.
Enough of a break ...

Until I'm back ... Herald my return ... go figure.

Goodnight
A.G

Back Again?

2007-01-07T15:48:00.000+05:30

Feliz Navidad Prospero Ano Felicidad

Goodnight
A.G

The Conscience of a Hacker

2006-11-28T02:03:00.000+05:30

This is my side of the story, with The Mentor's words thrown in, for the most part.

We aren't evil.
We do not revel in destroying.
We believe in building.

Please do read it with an open mind ...

Another one got caught today, it's all over the papers. "Teenager
Arrested in Computer Crime Scandal", "Hacker Arrested after Bank Tampering"...
Damn kids. They're all alike.

But did you, in your three-piece psychology and 1950's technobrain,
ever take a look behind the eyes of the hacker? Did you ever wonder what
made him tick, what forces shaped him, what may have molded him?
I am a hacker, enter my world...
Mine is a world that begins with school... I'm smarter than most of
the other kids, this crap they teach us bores me...
Damn underachiever. They're all alike.

I'm in junior high or high school. I've listened to teachers explain
for the fifteenth time how to reduce a fraction. I understand it. "No, Ms.
Smith, I didn't show my work. I did it in my head..."
Damn kid. Probably copied it. They're all alike.

I made a discovery today. I found a computer. Wait a second, this is
cool. It does what I want it to. If it makes a mistake, it's because I
screwed it up. Not because it doesn't like me...
Or feels threatened by me...
Or thinks I'm a smart ass...
Or doesn't like teaching and shouldn't be here...
Damn kid. All he does is play games. They're all alike.

And then it happened... a door opened to a world... rushing through
the phone line like heroin through an addict's veins, an electronic pulse is
sent out, a refuge from the day-to-day incompetencies is sought... a board is
found.
"This is it... this is where I belong..."
I know everyone here... even if I've never met them, never talked to
them, may never hear from them again... I know you all...
Damn kid. Tying up the phone line again. They're all alike...

You bet your ass we're all alike... we've been spoon-fed baby food at
school when we hungered for steak... the bits of meat that you did let slip
through were pre-chewed and tasteless. We've been dominated by sadists, or
ignored by the apathetic. The few that had something to teach found us will-
ing pupils, but those few are like drops of water in the desert.

This is our world now... the world of the electron and the switch, the
beauty of the baud. We make use of a service already existing without paying
for what could be dirt-cheap if it wasn't run by profiteering gluttons, and
you call us criminals. We explore... and you call us criminals. We seek
after knowledge... and you call us criminals. We exist without skin color,
without nationality, without religious bias... and you call us criminals.
You build atomic bombs, you wage wars, you murder, cheat, and lie to us
and try to make us believe it's for our own good, yet we're the criminals.

Yes, I am a criminal. My crime is that of curiosity. My crime is
that of judging people by what they say and think, not what they look like.
My crime is that of outsmarting you, something that you will never forgive me
for.

I am a hacker, and this is my manifesto. You may stop this individual,
but you can't stop us all... after all, we're all alike.

Goodnight
A.G

Homecoming

2006-11-27T02:05:00.000+05:30

It is I who is back. I have just lived through one of the greatest weeks of my entire life. The reasons, of course, are unknown to anyone. An hour or so really can change a year or so of the past. Easily. Thank you. You won’t read this, I know, ever.

I can now safely conclude, with my own experience serving as a judge, that it is far better to be a slave of the future than a prisoner of the past.

Moving on … I have wasted yet another weekend and I do find myself repenting for it. I do not know what will become of my projects just yet but I’d like to bet that things shall seem brighter this week.

I’d like to mention here that we now have an official F.L.I.R.T Youtube account.

Search for FLIRTBhaddal (That’s our user name – cocky but it was one of the few ones still available).

You could also go to the mentioned link :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7zvlUQx56dk

So much for that.

Much has happened over the past week but I cannot discuss it owing to my laziness, unwillingness to type much further and other factors beyond description. I hope to be more regular at devoting my attention to this page next year. Please do not take the previous sentence at face value though. I have much to do next month and very limited time and resources to do it in. A miracle just might be the need of the hour.

If you’re still reading this post then you had better go and absorb yourself in more germane matters.

Goodnight
A.G

Paradise Regained

2006-11-22T04:41:00.000+05:30

It is 4:40.
I am happy.
The world seems like a beautiful place to be in.
God bless us everyone.

Goodnight

A.G

Just Another Day in My Life

2006-11-17T03:17:00.000+05:30

I’ve been through a rough day. A pretty rough day.

I have some more comments on java. I’m not through though. I never will be actually.

I HATE JAVA, I HATE JAVA, I HATE JAVA …

Only idiots pursue it in great detail.

Out of the two hours spent at class today one hour and another fifteen minutes were spent by our teacher trying to remove errors from an EJB program. We (Mani, Sobby and I) were either sleeping, looking around blankly or, in an extreme case, talking on the phone.

Nothing was explained to us during the time our teacher wrestled his brain cells with the errors. At 5:00 P.M, finally, he exclaimed that the program was ready and assumed we already what was going on. We were too tired or found it too cumbersome to ask questions after undergoing a grueling session of doing nothing. That was the end of that.

This was followed by the scooter breaking down.
An hour and a half and Rs.150 later we found ourselves heading back for home.

Anyway, I’m expecting to watch the original IIT Elixir video on the 21^st if everything goes according to plan. Other than that … you might say I’m working on a project.

No further comments.

Oh and did I mention that I hate Java?
I don’t think so.
I hate Java.
There.

I’m smitten by the PS3’s architecture. Actually it’s its Cell processor that makes me skip a breath. It’s actually a really amazing chip if you ask me. I’d like to explain a little more about it but I’ll leave that for another time maybe.

Oh and before I forget. If anyone reading this is interested in technology or something related to it. Please do let me know. I’d love to have a conversation over absolutely anything.

Umm … That will be all for now.

Goodnight
A.G

Idiotic Truths

2006-11-16T03:52:00.000+05:30

I’m back. Yet again.

I would’ve said I’ve been busy but I cannot justify it completely so pretend you didn’t read this.
Anyway now that I am back I would like to share some truths of life …

Java is crap.

Everybody who’s anybody wishes to pursue Java. I personally believe it is meant for idiots who have too much free time on their hands. Not only is it illogically complicated but it tends to confuse you even more if you try to understand it.

I am almost through with Core and advanced Java and I can tell you from experience that almost nothing is repeated. By this I mean that every new topic in Java has a totally new concept and has absolutely nothing to do with the previous one. This, in effect, means that once you begin to understand to finally get the hang of a particular module you find you have you have to move on to the next one, which, of course, is something completely new and that leaves you feeling as if you’re studying a whole new language. Now imagine doing this every single day for two months straight.

I can now believe that people can actually pull their hair out with their bare hands.

Now, I know most people (esp. Java fan boys) would say that it’s got so and so features but … why the HELL does it have to be so … so … so damned weird/frustrating/complicated?

C++, by contrast, applies many of its concepts in various modules. For example, Friend functions may find use in Inheritance. Something like servlets (Java), however, have absolutely nothing in common with something like RMI. I know this was probably a one sided example but you don’t get it … I HATE JAVA. I’d rather spend time banging my head against a wall or attending lectures at college.

Sun Microsystems wanted to torture students like me so they devised an evil scheme and called it Java.

I can go on and on but I shall be moving on now. Oh and don’t bother defending Java. I absolutely refuse to listen to any pro-Java comments. Justified or unjustified. If you think Java rocks then I don’t like you.

Sigh … liberating …

Maninder’s Card Playing Strategies:

Mr. Arora rarely, if ever, graces us with his presence when we’re playing cards. When he does he prefers choosing Hearts as his colour, which, in most cases, proves to be his undoing. He prefers playing cards for the sake of playing them which can best be described in his own words – Ena dimaag kaanu laana? Mein taan bas patte sutti chalne ne.

No wonder he loses on most occasions.

Maninder’s Cricketing strategies:

Mr. Arora , again, rarely, if ever, graces us with his presence when were playing cricket in the basement, which, by the way, is a bushel of fun ! 6 commas in one statement. Nice !

Anyway, he has a knack of breaking his spectacles when he bats, bowls or fields. That, I shall admit, is a talent possessed only by a chosen few. Mr. Arora, ergo, would have to be their king.

He normally bowls slow spinning deliveries which are mostly good enough to get Arneja out.

Downloading movies and then deleting them without watching them:

This is one of the hot favorite pastimes here:

We always have multiple movies on downloading here but we never get to see them. You see in order to accommodate the new movies we need to delete stuff. That stuff also happens to be movies since they are in the same league size wise. So we delete previously downloaded movies which haven’t been watched in order to make room for the new ones. This is one vicious cycle.

Having soft drinks approximately 3 times a week:

It is, by now, a well established fact here that once the clock is about to strike 12 at night at least one scooter with a Punjab registration number will be seen exiting from the main Sector 40 gate and will be seen coming back 15 minutes later.

I suppose the reason is already clear.

Maninder’s one inch punch:

Since Mr. Arora seems to be on my mind right now ( Don’t get any wrong ideas here !) I’d like to mention a little about his one inch punch. He saw a Bruce clip that showed him executing the above said punch and he has been trying to perfect the same punch by practising it on me.

Mr. Arneja is … Chicken !

Mr. Arneja cannot watch a Chicken being slaughtered. He can cook it without any qualms. He can wash it without any qualms. He can eat it without any qualms but he won’t watch it being slaughtered. Hmm … Weird …

Half of Punjab is blatantly copying us:

This is with reference to dancing. I was fortunate enough to be at the Rayat fest this time around as well and I thought I’d be able to get ideas for our own dances in the near future. What I saw, though, was more of a copy of our own selves up on stage there. More than half the teams performed the robot. Some of them took our steps. Some took our routines, formations, music etc etc.

KML were last year’s MOOD INDIGO Group Dance Winners:

This fact had been brought to my knowledge only yesterday and quite frankly none of us think KML is that good a team. No offence to KML but even WE are better than them !

I would love to state a few interesting points here but I have just found out, much to my amazement, that Mr Inderpreet Sing (GRE Vaale) Is finally online after a gap of almost five months.

I must leave in order to pay homage.

Until next time

Goodnight
A.G

A Busy Diwali

2006-10-31T02:34:00.000+05:30

I’m back in Noida after Diwali. The following shall prove to be unexpected and maybe even downright shocking for some.

I have been working. What’s even stranger is that I’ve enjoyed it.

Moreover, I’ve submitted my Mid Term Report. On time. Wait … BEFORE time !

I plan to complete the first of my projects by the end of this week but I assure you I have plenty of distractions and I willing wish to succumb to them as well.

I have much to do before I sleep tonight so I had better get to it.

Oh and … I’m still alive.

Goodnight
A.G

Adapted

2006-10-22T16:13:00.000+05:30

The place where people gather to seek the highest is holy ground.

Goodnight
A.G

A Total Eclipse of the Heart

2006-10-18T02:51:00.000+05:30

Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit restless and I dream of something wild
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll never be the boy you always you wanted to be
Turnaround, every now and then I know
you'll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's no one in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
Turnaround, every now and then I know
there's nothing any better and there's nothing I just wouldn't do
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Goodnight
A.G

....

2006-10-16T01:54:00.000+05:30

He who does not wield enough power to alter his opinion, if needed, is a prisoner of his past.

Goodnight
A.G

A Quick Runthrough

2006-10-10T00:00:00.000+05:30

We ran out of fuel, twice, today.
Both tubes of Anmol's scooter are beyond repair.
We, however, believe we'll be replacing them only when one of them bursts They already have; twice !).
Anmol, Sobby and I have a sum total of a princely Rs. 36 left with us.
The above point illustrates why we are keenly anticipating Mr. Arneja's arrival tomorrow.

I have other, more important, things to do right now.

Goodnight
A.G

An Unorthodox Approach

2006-10-06T00:32:00.000+05:30

I am going to attempt something a little different tonight.
I shall try and put down as many points about anything that come to my mind in a 10 minute deadline.

And my time starts …

NOW !

1. I haven’t shaved since the prelims held on the 19th of September at IIT Delhi

2. I have shaved only thrice in Noida.

3. The rockapella for Save Tonight is all I listen to these days.

4. Keep the Faith. I know you'll read this. You know who
you are.

5. The mosquitoes are back :(

6. IJS … HOLY …!

7. I, as is becoming quite common now, am out of money again. Lend me some ... please :(

8. PTU was so impressed with my HRM paper that they just couldn't get enough of it. They have, therefore, decided to feast their eyes on another attempt of mine this December.

9. When will people learn?

10. Inderpreet Kaur Ubhi owes me yet another chocolate.
When will she learn that she cannot win a bet against me ?
Muahaha @ that.

11. I plan to make my Mid Sem Report myself. Let's see how things turn out.

12. I love intellectually or emotionally stimulating conversations.

13. Simplicity coupled with intellect is a killer combination.

14. Chandigarh HAS to be the best city to live in in India at the very least.

15. I plan on buying a Macbook Pro sometime next year depending on my financial situation.

16. As far as my internship projects are concerned I think I've bitten off way more than I can chew.

17. Free food awaits me this weekend. Lots of it.

18. @ Anmol ... DU is off these days !

19. I love reading.

20. I finally understand Java.

21. Logging in after midnight is liberating somehow.

22. I miss my first year in the college bus.

23. I haven't had tears run down my cheeks for more than 5 years.

24. It's not something I'm proud of.

25. Never take me at face value. You shall get unexpected results.

There …

Not bad. Mentally exhaustive though.

A movie should relax my grey cells a little right now.

I’m off …

Goodnight
A.G

Comfortably Numb

2006-10-04T02:38:00.000+05:30

I’ve just returned from Chandigarh, which, by the way, is paradise. I have lived like a king for the past few days. I wish to stress upon the word past since I am back to the city of lawlessness ,malodorous water, forever mounting expenses, frequent power cuts … a city I shall call home till December.

I have just learnt that my project has been deleted, accidentally albeit, in my absence. This, in essence, implies that whatever little I had done in the past three months has been eroded away for good. I must, now, restart from the very beginning and hope to complete at least two out of the initial three projects I had planned. I doubt, though, if I shall be able to manage to complete even one.

I have been reading voraciously lately and I find myself much the better for it. It allows me to spend time with myself and my thoughts. There’s probably nothing I’d want more. Whether this is an overstatement or not is unknown to me.

I’ve had time to review my life lately as well. Somehow, I’m glad I’ve done what I’ve done. Only I know what I’m talking about so don’t bother exercising your grey matter here. I cannot guarantee the outcome for that was and always will be something beyond me. I’m not exactly elated at the way things have shaped up but given the circumstances and the fact that I am one of the parties to the incident I shall accept what’s been thrown my way.

Everybody needs a break. That includes me as well. I’ve been waiting … for so long now.

Sometimes pain crosses the barriers that the human mind sets for it. It blurs what man terms The Comfort Zone. It steals away hope and implants fear in its place.

Am I trapped inside of me?

It is at times like these when the journey of life feels like walking on the razor’s edge.
I think it’s time to go to hug a pillow. I could use the false sense of security.

You had a choice.
I never even knew one existed here.
If only you could see things my way.
Just once.
If only you had tried.
If only …

Would you undo anything,
If you could see my plight?
This world shall sleep peacefully,

But I’ll burn to ashes tonight …

Goodnight
A.G

A Lame Recount of Elixir 2006

2006-09-26T03:26:00.000+05:30

Reality is an illusion. Only dreams are real.

The day is 18 September 2004. The venue – Dogra Hall (Insti - 1^st floor) IIT Delhi.The time – 10:00 A.M.

The occasion – Spectrum 2004. An event every participating and (non participating) team dreams of winning.

It was on this day that 5 boys from an unknown college in an unknown place went head to head against, arguably, the best teams in the country (or at least the upper half of it).

It was on that fateful morning that they had a glimpse of what lay ahead of them. Teams showing and proving their mettle on stage.

They were in no way lesser than anybody who went on stage that day. They only did not know what to expect, what to present, how to present it and most importantly … how to nail it.

Quite frankly, their ouster from the prelims itself was justified.

Disappointed, but not yet destroyed, they vowed to return.

Spectrum 2005:

The 5 boys – and 3 girls, having rechristened themselves as F.L.I.R.T, returned to the same stage a year later to see what lay ahead of them.

A place in the finals, and more significantly, a chance to perform on the same stage with teams such as MLN, LSR, JMC and the likes, was what ensued.

Elixir 2006 :

All 5 of us were on training this time around. Our chances of qualifying started to look like a distant dream once the rules for Elixir (the new name for Spectrum) were out. A minimum of 7 people and off course the dreaded second round,

The prelims were scheduled to be held on the 19^th. We became eligible for the event (Read gathered 7 people) on the morning of the 17^th.

I shall skip most of the important part here as I have better things to do right now than type (read sleep).

We managed a second position in the prelims which, in itself, is a preposterously huge proposition.

On the day of the finals - The 21^st of September 2006 – at 5:20 P.M we were the only team that did not even have a final CD ready to be played.

We hadn’t bathed and nor had we rehearsed the second round a single time in proper order upto that time - half an hour before the commencement of the finals.

Chaos ensued with people running left and right only to make it just in the nick of time to the O.A.T – The monstrously huge venue for the finals.

I can say this with reasonable confidence that no team, in the first round, came close to matching us that night. No, this is NOT an overstatement.

The second round, I believe, though, clearly belonged to IIT Delhi.

I remember sitting in the crowd during the announcement of the results. The judges declared IIT Delhi to be third which made my imagination run wild – What if … ?

SRCC took home the second prize leaving the first slot open for LSR, JMC and I.E.T Bhaddal.

Most of us were gunning for LSR to steal the thunder.

There was a slight pause before the judges formally announced the winner.
I remember looking up at the dark sky that time.

Something calmed me down.
Something that night made me feel secure.
Something removed all doubt from within me.

As soon as the judge announced the letter I everything went silent. I could see people screaming around me but I heard nothing. Not a word. Nothing. Perfect silence. Just cajoling by people standing near me. I’ve never run like the way I did that night from the stands to the stage. Hell … none of us ran the way we did that night.

As I went on stage there everything came back to me.

The faces of the 5 boys who were eliminated by the same teams two years ago.
The endless hours of practice put in over a period of 3 years, directly or indirectly.

The disappointments.
The triumphs.

The wins.
The losses.

The frustration.
The satisfaction.

The joy.
The pain.

I rarely emote in public but there was a hint of mist in my eyes that night.

Miracles do happen.

No power on Earth can stop a man who sets forth to achieve his dream.

This is just another example.

Thank you everyone who has ever given us the pleasure of dancing with them – boys and girls alike.

Thank you
Abhinav, Maninder, Sobby, Saurabh.

Here’s a song dedicated to all of you :

We are the Champions – Queen

F.L.I.R.T … forever …

Goodnight
A.G

Spectrum 2006

2006-09-18T03:19:00.000+05:30

It is 3:07 A.M as I type these lines. F.L.I.R.T shall be taking to stage in approximately 31 hours at Dogra Hall.

We’ve assembled the strongest set ever performed by us at any fest at any given time. In other words … we’ve kept everything but the kitchen sink!

Formations can be found in abundance in our routines this time around. Positioning, stage setting, lighting etc have been planned out for a change. The only hitch is that we’ve had negligible practice.“Ill Prepared” is an understatement if you consider our preparation for the finals.

All in all … we're praying nobody goofs up and everything goes according to plan which, in itself, is a rarity.

The finals are on the 21^st leaving us with almost no time for preparation for the second round.
Ahh … quality over quality must be our excuse as always.

Anyways, as always the entire routine leaves everybody gasping for breath, water and life.

And as always, we love it.

Goodnight
A.G

Note: If none of the above makes sense then please bear in mind that I am exhausted and do not know what I’m typing :)

God Exists !

2006-09-16T04:36:00.000+05:30

This is to inform everyone reading these lines that are 9 people ready to take to the stage at Dogra Hall at 10:00 A.M on the 19^th of September.

The routines, positions, formations et al pertaining to the first round have been finalized. The situation of the second round, though, is the exact opposite.

I believe, if everything goes according to plan, we should be able to make it through to the finals. Off course if we had enough funds (read college support) things would have been easier but this is a tradition that we are becoming accustomed to.

We have four new people joining us tomorrow. Two of us shall go scouting for costumes tomorrow. The rest shall begin working on the second round and teach the others the routines.

We, as is usual with us, are running out of time but as always … we seem to work better when we’re in such situations.

Cheers to the past !
See you at Dogra Hall on the 19^th

Goodnight
A.G

Wanted : Dead or Alive

2006-09-14T02:25:00.000+05:30

This is an open invitation to any male youth who wishes to perform at Spectrum (IIT Delhi).

We need one more person to meet the eligibility criteria of having a minimum of 7 people per team. We face disqualification if the above condition is not met.

Any help shall greatly be appreciated.

Please let me know … @ gill_aseem@yahoo.com or 098913 62707

Waiting … hoping … praying …

Goodnight
A.G

Rendezvous 2006 - The Mirage ?

2006-09-08T02:25:00.000+05:30

Our plans to perform on the 20th have been put in serious jeopardy.

I dub thee unforgiven ...

Goodnight
A.G

Disjoint Thoughts

2006-09-06T03:09:00.000+05:30

It is Wednesday, 2:06 A.M.
We have less than two weeks to go before F.L.I.R.T takes to stage at IIT Delhi.
Rehearsal, finally, has started.
The entire track has been recompiled and edited.

The routines are being finalized, the beats are being mixed. All in all, we seem to have woken up.

I can feel my legs cramping up as I write this but I shall have to get accustomed to worse physical conditions in the coming two (and possibly three) weeks.

I have much to do these days though , I confess, it is not evident.

I’m working on a couple of projects for the presentation at the end of my internship. I do not know how many I shall be able to complete by the time. Time shall tell … just like always.

… MunnaBhai … is worth the money. Cars is not.

It has a song Pal Pal … inspired by the Cliff Richards classic Theme for a Dream.

If you’re the type that simply loves listening to melodies then I strongly suggest you give the above song and Summer Holiday a hear.

I promise you they’ll hold your attention.

It’s an unending list but here’s what I have on my play list along with the above mentioned songs :

Wind of Change – The Scorpions
Deliverance – Bubba Sparxxx
Aicha – The Outlandish Version
Yesterday – The Beatles
Suspicious Minds – Elvis (Any melody of his)
The Bluest Eyes in Texas – Little Texas … sigh …

I still can find bliss.
There’s hope for me yet!

Goodnight
A.G

K.I.S.S - Keep It Simple Stupid

2006-09-01T00:46:00.000+05:30

The 10 Commandments contain 297 words. The Bill of Rights is stated in 463 words. Lincoln's Gettysburg Address contains 266 words. A recent federal directive to regulate the price of cabbage contains 26,911 words.

Think about it.

Goodnight
A.G

To Whomever It May Concern

2006-08-30T03:00:00.000+05:30

This is to inform anyone who might be interested that Microsoft is providing an absolutely free download of the Vista beta iso for download to the first 100,000 people clicking on their link.

If you’re interested then you know what to do.

Goodnight
A.G

Far Away

2006-08-29T03:09:00.000+05:30

If only you could hear Chad sing this ...

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Hold Me

2006-08-28T03:01:00.000+05:30

If we can't find a way out of these problems
Then maybe we don't need this
Standing face to face
Enemies at war we build defenses
And secret hiding places

I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's alright
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man

Hey
More than angry words I hate this silence
It's getting so loud
Well I want to scream
But bitterness has silenced these emotions
It's getting hard to breathe
So tell me isn't happiness
Worth more than a gold diamond ring?
I'm willing to do anything
To calm the storm in my heart
I've never been the praying kind
But lately I've been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe ...

Still holding on ... senselessly ... with open arms and an open mind...

Goodnight
A.G

Life’s the same – only different.

2006-08-26T02:34:00.000+05:30

We have indulged in basement cricket in our pg. It is, without any hint of doubt, fun.
Arneja, in trying to be a little too flamboyant, smashed a glass bulb in a glass casing to smitherines yesterday.

This was followed by Dhand literally charging into a door (in the basement) in his attempt to steal a single and smashing its hinges to smitherines.

The major difference between the two events was the sound. It was amplified in both cases, as one would expect, however, a crash was heard in the first instance while a more BANG kind of sound was recorded in the second case.
Our landlady has no knowledge of this but I fear things will change in a day or two.

Moving on, now that we have an internet connection here everybody here seems to be bickering over who gets to avail it and when. I have chosen the graveyard shift for myself. I find this particular suited for me since I prefer to ahem … work online (or whichever way you choose to put it )… when I’m alone.

At almost all other times when the sun is up I find myself looking at an orkut logged screen with Mr. Sharma or Mr. Arora hogging the computer.

The word obsession cannot do justice to the hype generated by orkut. The evenings belong to Arneja who, invariably, also logs in before proceeding to mobango.com.

Mention the word orkut in front of him,however. and he swears off it putting the blame solely on me.

In other news, The final track for Rendezvous 2006 is ready. The moves are being finalized with only a few minutes worth of track left to be completed.
This year, thankfully, we have no salsa to murder or a Govinda type Bollywood song to embarrass us and the audience alike. I hereby thank the Lord for sending Saurabh for his internship to Bombay (I prefer Bombay to Mumbai). Who knows what could’ve transpired in his presence !

I’m hating typing this post right now so I shall be stopping soon.

I’M ALIVE !!!

…and it feels good.

Goodnight
A.G

Soul Patch Sundays

2006-08-21T01:09:00.000+05:30

Another day has just gone by. Ok ok … you’ve probably figured that out for yourself too.

The title of this post refers to my soul patch (duh!).
I’ve grown one again.

You can say it breaks the monotony of a semi-long term routine.
Sometimes you need to be extravagantly inane to bring about change and I shall pass that for my excuse.

In other news I have been spending reasonable amounts of time on the roof of our PG. We occupy two rooms situated on the top floor here and atop the top floor awaits a view of the surroundings that is breathtaking.It gets especially pleasing after the clock strikes 7:00. The ever blowing breeze runs through your hair and the world literally sits beneath your feet.

I’ve been singing the acoustic version of All the Small Things sitting up there by myself and you may take my word when I say … Singing this song softly with the intro riff as karaoke puts you in a different world.

Typing the previous post was liberating. Very.
It’s good to be back again. Let’s see if I can keep this up.

Goodnight

A.G

A Revival of Sorts

2006-08-20T01:14:00.000+05:30

I shall discontinue the seemingly never-ending string of inactivity here.
The reasons for the long pause are numerous and irrelevant to this post.Warnings about the pause had been issued well in advance.

I finally have a broadband connection at Noida which is cause enough for celebration.
I shall excuse myself from writing in detail for now for there is much to write about and the very thought of that scares me.
It is 12:54 AM and it is imperative that I get sleep in order to face the hectic line of events that I have lined up for me ensue tomorrow.

I hope to write a little more frequently but I have observed, and thereby established beyond any measure of doubt, that my thoughts flow more clearly when I am alone – mentally, not physically. The problem is that when I am mentally alone,instead of blogging I choose to spend time with myself, with my thoughts, lost in oblivion, disjoint from the world.

If the above line made no sense to you then you are perfectly normal.
If not … learn to take pride in your abnormality.
You win either way.

I shall say goodbye by quoting Elbert Hubbard here :

He who does not understand your silence will
probably not understand your words.

Goodnight
A.G

Dry Your Eyes

2006-07-16T22:15:00.000+05:30

In one single moment your whole life can turn 'round
I stand there for a minute starin' straight into the ground
Lookin' to the left slightly, then lookin' back down
World feels like it's caved in - proper sorry frown
Please let me show you where we could only just be, for us
I can change and I can grow or we could adjust
The wicked thing about us is we always have trust
We can even have an open relationship, if you must
I look at her she stares almost straight back at me
But her eyes glaze over like she's lookin' straight through me
Then her eyes must have closed for what seems an eternity
When they open up she's lookin' down at her feet

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

So then I move my hand up from down by my side
It's shakin', my life is crashin' before my eyes
Turn the palm of my hand up to face the skies
Touch the bottom of her chin and let out a sigh
'Cause I can't imagine my life without you and me
There's things I can't imagine doin', things I can't imagine seein'
It weren't supposed to be easy, surely
Please, please, I beg you please
She brings her hands up towards where my hands rested
She wraps her fingers round mine with the softness she's blessed with
She peels away my fingers, looks at me and then gestures
By pushin' my hand away to my chest, from hers

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

And I'm just standin' there, I can't say a word
'Cause everythin's just gone
I've got nothin'
Absolutely nothin'

Tryin' to pull her close out of bare desperation
Put my arms around her tryin' to change what she's sayin'
Pull my head level with hers so she might engage in
Look into her eyes to make her listen again
I'm not gonna fuckin', just fuckin' leave it all now
'Cause you said it'd be forever and that was your vow
And you're gonna let our things simply crash and fall down
You're well out of order now, this is well out of town
She pulls away, my arms are tightly clamped round her waist
Gently pushes me back and she looks at me straight
Turns around so she's now got her back to my face
Takes one step forward, looks back, and then walks away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over

I know in the past I've found it hard to say
Tellin' you things, but not tellin' straight
But the more I pull on your hand and say
The more you pull away

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now.

A Little Bit of This and That

2006-07-16T00:50:00.000+05:30

It is 2:56 A.M at night. Happy 16^th July everyone.

I am listening to the acoustic version of Broken By Seether.

Beautiful.

Moving on … Upon his insistence I went to Saurabh’s salsa class today. I had Sobby for company. We sat there watching 6 couples move their waists, sometimes irregularly but moving them nonetheless.

After much deliberation Sobby and I concluded that the entire session was … well… ordinary.

It was at this juncture that Saurabh informed us that we were bearing witness to a class of beginners. Fair enough.
The dance instructor was obese, if I may say so, but I am told that he dances like a dream, which I choose to take at face value here.

This was followed by the three of us discussing plans for the next 6 months.

Our itinerary is as follows :

Oasis-2006 BITS Pilani September 16 or so

Rendezvus-2006 IIT Delhi September 22 or so.

Mood Indigo IIT Bombay December 22 or so

You see we’ve decided we shall only be attending the major fests in the coming 6 months.
We shall be going sans girls in all three in all probability.
There shall be no Mujhse Shaadi Karogi type songs. If you missed us perform that then you’re lucky.

We shall not be murdering salsa again either.

Many of you may not have a clue about what I just said but trust me, that’s a good thing.

Here’s what our format is going to be :

0:00 - 4:00 (Approx) - Michael Jackson (Who is it/Dangerous/Billie Jean mix)

4:00 – 4:30 – 4 people go change their costumes backstage with one person still on stage with the spotlight on him.

4:30 – 5:00 – The single guy goes backstage and the other 4 come back for a minimum of two formations.

5:00 - 7:00 – Powerdancing.

7:00 – 9:00 – Something on the lines of Allah Ke Bande (MLN style ;) )

9:00 – 11:30 or so – Freestyling ending on Smells Like Teen Spirit.

I suppose conditioning shall be starting off by the next weekend.

And this goes out to all you wannabe freestylers.

If you’re starting off on waving … try it out in a full sleeve shirt of proper fitting.It is easier to achieve the final effect this way.

If you truly wish to learn it then try rolling up your shirt to your shoulders and then practice.

Note - Do not forget to include the shoulders in the overall motion.

The shoulders follow an up-down motion. When one goes up the other goes down and vice versa.

And and and … lest I forget … try and practice these moves in front of a mirror or better still … turn off the lights and light a candle. Now stand between the candle and a wall so that your shadow falls on the wall. If you achieve the wave effect on the shadow on the wall then you’ve got it !

I hope that was helpful. Any and all doubts shall be entertained.

If any of you reading this is male and interested in dancing then please do get in touch. We are looking for people for the aforementioned fests.

Enough of that.

If you’re still reading this …

Goodnight
A.G

The Only Disability in Life ...

2006-07-14T22:48:00.000+05:30

... is a bad attitude.

Realize it. It, like the truth, has the power to set you free.

Goodnight

A.G

Gurgaon

2006-07-11T16:36:00.000+05:30

1. I apologise for the poor fonts.
2. The above point stresses that I , still, am alive.

The title of this post aptly describes my geographical co-ordinates vis-à-vis now.
People live like animals here. This is an understatement.

We, on the other hand, found ourselves a room fit for Caesar himself. The process involving finding it is probably the most horrific tale ever told.
The second most horrific tale ever told is how Sobby and I have been appearing for interviews left and right.
I shall not go into details right now.
We have been sweating it out in the city for more than a week now.
We’ve been surviving on Aallu ke paranthe all day for 8 days straight. (an egg roll thrown in for good measure).

Everytime we turn the T.V on we are either greeted by the Mr. Reshamiya’s voice or Amitabh Bachhan’s Waqt (The race against time, I might add.)

I believe I am encountering the sum total of whatever bad luck I were to have in a lifetime.

Depression, or any of its first cousins, however, find themselves distanced from us.

We’ve been roaming the malls after 11:00 P.M only to find everything closed down. If this weren’t enough we ended up spending Rs. 307 at Barista.

Our ride back home nearly cost us an additional Rs. 300.

All in all, I deem it fit to say that our stay here has been one of either extremes.
Jeopardy and horrendous luck in one end and the familiar sit back and relax routine at the other.

This, in all fairness, is not even the beginning of what we’ve undergone in the past week but I’m hoping it serves as
a reminder to everyone that Gurgaon, clearly, is not for the weak hearted.

If I were given an opportunity to change anything about our experience here, I’d change nothing.

Gurgaon, much like life, is what you want it to be.

Goodnight
A.G

P.S - I’m at 98913 62707. There.

Until Next Time

2006-07-01T17:45:00.000+05:30

This is me, again. (Who else?)
I leave for Gurgaon with Sobby tomorrow morning.
I thought I’d leave a sort of a goodbye note.

This blog shall, in all probability, be static for long now.

I finally have bought a cell.
I did so for I need to have, at least, a back up in the form of Bluetooth in order to access the net.

Other luxuries such as smsing and calling are secondary to me.

So much for that.
I do solemnly hope my absence is inconspicuous here.
I shall not write much further for now or, for that matter, for a long time now.
Have been listening to Fall to Pieces (Avril) for two days now.

Anywyas, here’s wishing everybody good spirits and good riddance!!!

Stay tight … stay alive.

Goodnight
A.G

Do you see the world as it is ...

2006-06-28T01:33:00.000+05:30

Or do you see the world as you are?

Goodnight
A.G

Impromptu Writing

2006-06-25T18:24:00.000+05:30

I am typing my thoughts as they come to me.

That, in itself, is a dangerous proposition.

You have been warned.

I have engaged myself in philosophical endeavors, sub consciously off course, to such an extent that charades such as internship no longer seem to occupy my mind.

I find myself much the happier for that despite having knowledge of the fact that I shall cry about how I didn’t take it seriously when I should have.

The future will always be uncertain. Maybe that is why I look forward to it.

I do realize that it is not time that matters but the amount of work that I do.
Time, surprisingly, however, wields little power over those who do not submit to its demands

I, for no particular reason, am reasonably elated today

I wish to talk today. Talk endlessly … about nothing, about everything …but I do not see it materializing in any immediately foreseeable circumstance this day.

I have observed the hype generated by orkut these days. In addition to this I have also observed that most people creating accounts here do so for it is the latest fad. I find this reason outrageously preposterous.

If only people did it with right earnest …

Ahh… these words needn’t be taken seriously … or maybe at all.

I wonder when people will stop trying to be a football of the mass’s opinion.

I shall take leave now in order to try and satisfy an insatiable urge to devour chocolate ice cream.

Until next time …

A.G

A Place Called Punjab Infotech

2006-06-25T00:32:00.000+05:30

Here’s something that happened to me today.

I woke up in the afternoon today, as usual. As I got up to brush my teeth and use the mouthwash I realized the futility to actually be conscious of the entire process. I, therefore, went through the motions half asleep. As I put the mouthwash liquid in my mouth I noticed a burning sensation in my mouth, which, I thought, was due to the strong concentration of the liquid in question.

It was when the burning accelerated that I actually took notice of the bottle housing the liquid.

D-E-T-T-O-L.

Perfect.

In other news, Half of Bhaddal population has their 6 month internship at Punjab Infotech.

Now, Punjab Infotech is responsible for all computer related awareness and education in Punjab (Acc. to the Government of Punjab).

Some of the personalities about to make PI their office for 6 months are … Ami, Sodhi, Mandeep, Ashish, Ratra and quite a lot more.I have omitted any titles such as Mr. (or Ms. !!!)

This great movement to PI (Punjab Infotech) by Bhaddalites, I am sure, will lead to an eradication of computer education in Punjab.

The people may then resort to riots to protest this. This, in turn, may bring about the fall of the entire country’s economy ( since riots tend to have that effect).

India’s economy in jitters could spell trouble for all developing nations leading to half the world’s economies crashing.

Oil prices would shoot up, people wouldn’t be able to afford water and eventually cockroaches would take over the planet.

All because Punjab Infotech admitted students from Bhaddal for their 6 month internship.

Little did they know !!!

Is it not funny what results speculation can bring about?

Goodnight

A.G

Dream On

2006-06-22T00:36:00.000+05:30

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter 'n sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream comes true
Dream on, dream on, dream on
Dream on, dream on, dream on, dream on

I have nothing substantial to do tonight so I thought I might as well post.
There is a strong possibility that whatever I may write tonight may prove to be gibberish but I shall type anyways. Even if it is just to kill time.

I find myself engaged in listening to Dream On by Aerosmith, right now.

It moves me no end every time I listen to it. Not only are Tyler’s vocal amazingly impressive (especially towards the end of the song) but it places emphasis on the importance of dreams. On how we must never give up dreaming.

If anything can be dreamt up then it can, you better believe it, be achieved.
History is proof of the same.

The V8 engine was an engineering impossibility. It is now one of the most significant advancements to have taken place in the automobile industry.

Elvis was told by a record company to Go back to drivin’ a truck.

Wilma Rudolph (a polio victim), who was told by doctors that she’d never walk, won 3 gold medals at the 1960 Olympics.

Please do not bother telling me it cannot be done again.
Circumstances can be the Achilles Heel or a stepping stone whichever way you choose to interpret them.

The only reason people get bogged down by circumstances is because they allow themselves that luxury and not because circumstances wield any significant threat or power over them.

I say this, not even God dares to deny a man something he truly sets out to achieve. The principle of Karma really does work.

Anyone who tells you about your incapability to execute any task is lying, blatantly, in your face.

It is amazing what a man can achieve if he is willing to focus his mind, and therefore his resources, on anything.
I say this for I have seen it happen first hand.

The realm of possibility is wider than our wildest dreams.

PLEASE; realize that and you might just change your life forever. I know I did.

Miracles are not fictional happenings. They are the harvest of the mind.

The mind is an amazing thing. Science will not tell you that. Maybe this is because science does not quite realize the true capabilities of the mind as yet.

It is the mind that houses your attitude, which, in turn, defines your attitude. Your attitude, again, in turn, defines your persona which, yet again, in turn, defines who you really are.

Fear is another thing that causes many a brave souls to abort their paths. Everybody has fears. Everybody. Bravery lies in facing them, not defeating them. I, too, am trying to face up to my fears. I have failed, miserably, but it is because of these failures that I now understand fear like never before.

We fear something, mostly, because of what unprecedented outcomes we might have to contend with as a result of facing up to that fear.

Fear of facing the truth, of facing the world, of facing our own selves, is something that engulfs an absolute majority of us. Most of us do not even realize this.

It is fear that brings about things like peer pressure. Nobody is free from it but the extent to which it influences people is startling.

People ensure their own downfall, at times, when they are too busy catering to what the world will think of some action of theirs and, in the process, overlook what they really ought to be doing. It is here that I shall admit that I, too, have been guilty of the same in the not so distant past.

I do not wish to fret upon it for that will change nothing. I would, however, change things if I could.

If only I could …

I feel like confessing tonight. Confessing my truths, my regrets, my joys, my dreams, anything that occurs to me right now … alas … confessions, here, shall serve no real purpose.

I have been spending monstrously huge time with myself which has given me enough time to reassess myself. Of what I’ve done wrong lately and what I’ve been doing right. Wrong and right, off course, here refer to my perception of them.

I hope that I shall not hesitate from embarking upon whatever paths I may choose, consciously or sub consciously, in the near future.

As far as my ’wrongs’ go I can only hope I get a chance, somewhere, somehow, to rectify them, provided they do not prove to be incorrigible in the first place.

Until then I shall keep doing what I do best.

Dream on …

Goodnight
A.G

Amongst Other Things

2006-06-21T00:39:00.000+05:30

I’ve been listening to Take it Easy by The Eagles all day long. Why don’t they make more songs like these anymore?

Here’s something that will shock almost everybody in touch with me to the core.

I actually went looking for shoes today !

Ok ok, it’s only because ma left me with no choice but I went nonetheless. Now here’s the bizarre part - I actually found a pair that I fancied. They look like the sneakers that Michael Jordan wore in Space Jam during the ending Basketball match. Not bad. Not bad at all.

Plans for buying a mobile are turning more complex since everybody is giving me mutually exclusive opinions on which set I should opt for.

It seems the natural habitat of nincompoops is no longer restricted to the confines of the Punjab Technical University. They, clearly, have spread out into affiliated colleges and have seemed to take a particular liking to our institution.

I say this because I have just been informed about the new policies framed by our management.
They say if somebody from college has already been placed then he is barred form appearing from any other placement test until the time that 80% of the entire batch has been placed.

Once 80% of the batch has been placed, even then under no circumstances are the placed candidates to secure more than two job offers.

Perfect. Great going.

Do not loathe me for the stance I am taking on this issue. I can only hope that you view this with a sense of rationality.

The thing is this; how are the already placed candidates going to affect the chances of the others vis-à-vis getting selected by a company???

How does barring them help the others?

I can say this with a certain degree of confidence (despite the rigging of the Home Institute – Which, by the way, is no longer a rumor or something kept under the rug) that the company is looking for quality. Not Quantity. If they believe a certain individual fulfills the criteria required off him then should he not be the one selected? Do his offer letters from other companies make a difference here?

Off course I cannot argue against a company which has a policy of barring candidates who already have been placed. That is a choice that the company has made. What right, though, does an academic institution have to enforce such a policy?

It is not a question of exercising the option of appearing or not, here, but, simply, of having an option to exercise in the first place. Whether any of us choose to actually appear for an interview again is not the matter. The matter is that we may have the choice to do so. That, I believe, is also a fundamental pillar of democracy – Something that this country swears to abide by.

I do solemnly hope that half of those responsible for formulating nonsensical policies, not unlike this one, become terminally ill.

The other half, it is hoped by me, may be forced to eat a concoction that tastes like kaddu, gheeya and baingan all rolled into one.

And after that may the Devil take over the souls of each one of them and make them watch reruns of Ekta Kapoor’s soaps.

I shall contact Satan myself for the same.

Alternate suggestions for the above are always welcome.

Oh and Good luck to everyone appearing for the Tech Mahindra exam tomorrow. I’ve heard it won’t be the easiest.

Goodnight

A.G

At a Loss For Words

2006-06-20T00:03:00.000+05:30

It is 11:32 PM and I find myself typing these words. They have no purpose tonight. I do not know what to write about, whether I should write anything at all here but I am, nonetheless.

My entire existence in the past week has revolved around this silicon collection they call the computer.

I think it is apt to mention here that I love this font.

I am experiencing life like never before.

Take my schedule for instance. I sleep at around 7:00 AM and wake up somewhere between 2:00 and 3:00 PM.

I find myself distanced from the rest of the world and I could use that. It has long been overdue.

I’ve been listening to good music too. Life, without college, is, just like old times. Sigh …

For no specific reason I shall mention here that the Ole Ole Ole audible in Yahoo Messenger is hilarious.

My movie watching spree continues.

Here’s advice for all you males – Fixing a female’s PC is a remarkable feat to achieve if you can manage that without having to sacrifice your sanity in the bargain.

Sobby STILL hasn’t handed me my confirmation. Boo Hoo for that.

I have been devoting time to the guitar too. The soothing effect brought forth by it is of unquestionable beauty.

I think this should act as my cue for spending more time with the 6 strings tonight.

Goodnight.

A.G

Always

2006-06-18T02:07:00.000+05:30

At this midnight hour I cannot help but quote the lyrics of Always by Bon Jovi.

This romeo is bleeding
But you can’t see his blood
It’s nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It’s been raining since you left me
Now I’m drowning in the flood
You see I’ve always been a fighter
But without you I give up

Now I can’t sing a love song
Like the way it’s meant to be
Well, I guess I’m not that good anymore
But baby, that’s just me

And I will love you, baby - always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme

And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you - always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye

What I’d give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I’ve made mistakes, I’m just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you’ve been needing to hear
I’ll wish I was him ’cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There’s no price I won’t pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain’t no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We’ll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme

And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you - always

The heart has to be one of the most destructive forces known to mankind.

Goodnight
A.G

The Bluest Eyes in Texas

2006-06-17T23:15:00.000+05:30

I’ve haven’t ventured out of the front door in over 55 hours now. I shall be spending the entire night online again. My system hasn’t gone offline for three days straight (though I sign out of messenger at times). I have no plans of shutting it down anytime soon unless, off course, the Electricity Board begs to differ.

God said “Let there be light” but the Electricity Board said “Not so fast !!!”

I am safe for now.

My tryst with movies and books is continuing.

Plans for Rendezvous 2006 are gaining momentum with frequent middle-of-the-night- online discussions concerning costumes, costume changes, track sequences, lighting etc.

Mr. Dhand plans for us to get together on the 22^nd for dinner.

Sobby still hasn’t handed me my confirmation letter. I think I need to reprimand him for the same.

The bluest eyes in Texas are haunting me tonight

Like the stars that fill the midnight sky her memory fills my mind

Where did I go wrong, Did I wait too long or can I make it right

The bluest eyes in Texas are haunting me to night ...

Goodnight

A.G

The Boys are Back in Town

2006-06-16T16:01:00.000+05:30

Actually, it is only I who is back.
My broadband connection had been giving me problems for the past week or so and that should explain my absence for long.
My exams are now over and I, therefore, have enough time on my hands to devote to this task. These post is proof that things are now back to normal. Thank God for that. I have been watching movies and reading a lot these days.

You see, I always make plans during the exams … plans on what I shall be doing with my free time during the vacations and since these vacations shall be lasting long I thought up a few things to do. The most extraordinary part is that I have been sticking to them.

And the exams … well they didn’t go according to plan. IBS was more like a horror movie.

I’m just glad I’ve seen “THE END” of that.

I am currently installing all required software I shall need. I had to format my beloved system in order to get the connection working. The procurement of a suitable OS disc for the same proved to be tedious. My disc is with a friend who has conveniently departed for Ludhiana without warning.

In other news, the track for Rendezvous 2006 is nearly complete. I mean the rough draft.

I have been spending enormous amounts of time at The Browser these days. The people there now recognize me by name.

I finally plan to put an end to my friends’ woes and buy a cell phone. The only reason I need one is that I may be able to access the net using Bluetooth (In Delhi – where I shall be training). I do not care if I have incoming or outgoing facilities or not. The important thing is that Bluetooth must be up and working. Messrs Saini and Arneja suggested I set my eyes upon the 6681. (Yes, Arneja I actually remember the name of the phone ).

And and and … I’ve been messing around with ways to crack game protections and some of them do work. It’s funny what a dissembler and a debugger coupled together can do . (evil grin)

So much for that.

I am back online and it’s raining outside. Things are looking up.

Until next time

A.G

06/06/06

2006-06-06T16:15:00.000+05:30

The number of the beast. So says the Bible. It turns out the Bible finally got one right.

Mr. Arneja, I am guessing, would be smiling if he ever read this, though I doubt he ever will. The reasons for this shall not be mentioned here.

What shall be mentioned here, on the other hand, is why I believe the aforementioned date is, in fact, the number of the beast. The beast, probably, is the University that shall hand me my degree at the end of my graduation. The story follows.

Note – The number of the beast also happens to be one of Iron Maiden’s finest albums, I believe, to date. That’s a hard rock band, in case you did not know.

Anyways … continuing …

Nincompoops inhabit P.T.U

This, I believe is a fact that has been established beyond all measure of doubt and now should be painted across the walls of every PTU affiliated college.

The sanity of the concerned authorities is also under question by me.

I find myself unable to resist the temptation to question the importance of actually studying the syllabus for any PTU paper.(since rarely do they ask questions from it).

Anyways, here’s what happened today.

The clock screamed 9:30 which indicated the start of our RTS (Real Time Systems) examination.

Now, as is becoming habitual with me, I glimpsed at Mr. Jha (since he receives the paper before I do) and waited, patiently, for a reaction. It was the same Kuch nahin aata look on his face which I am now beginning to get accustomed to.
The alarm bells started ringing when I noticed Ms. Pal, seated two seats behind him, smiling with her right hand on her face looking the question paper. I then turned to Ms. Verma for hope and I found the same effective reaction. All the above 75% ers were perplexed.
That should be indication enough of the state of the paper. You see these toppers( and quite a few more) are people who rarely emote during an examination and to see things change in this exam was horrendous and gratifying at the same time.
Horrendous because of the implications the question paper would have on people like me and gratifying because now, maybe, they know what we go through in most papers !

Anyways, the examination began with murmurs arising out of the entire class. The external invigilator offered us condolence saying the problem would be solved soon. Off course he never showed up again after saying that.

Now, in such a paper, most people are out to salvage the most they can from it. This, in turn, requires more than just a fair bit of concentration. This is when Mrs. Aman (Our Ex- DAA teacher) steps in the classroom announcing that some students still haven’t paid up for the Seniors’ Farewell. Wow . Perfect timing.

This was followed by our RTS lecturer Mrs. Arunima telling us to attempt each question. The only problem here was that the below 75% ers had no clue what to write about.

How do we know what Fault Tolerant Architectures are?

TMR should probably stand for Totally Meaningless Redundancy .

I’m assuming you get what I am trying to tell you here.

Off course the above 75 % ers would’ve had no problems writing SOMETHING that would thereby enable them to get grace marks.

A single song resonated in my mind for the entire duration of the exam Rape Me – Nirvana
I think it is apt and ironic how the song seemed to fit, perfectly, the situation I found myself in.

Calls to Mr. Gupta for some points to elucidate upon proved to be futile. (Except in the last 2 minutes, by which time it was already too little too late.)

I spent the three hours writing about things I had no clue about, finalizing my plans for the 6 months training, imagining what it would be like if I were to stand up and run away with my answer sheet amongst other things that are best left unmentioned.

I still do not know what hit me during those three hours but it sure was unpleasant.

For Mr. Sahore, though, it was just another exam.

Goodnight.

A.G

Quotidian Ramblings

2006-06-04T22:01:00.000+05:30

Here I am, having chocolate milk and about to embark upon the task …haha task !!! RTOS ! … of watching movies all night.

I have taken an overview of the entire syllabus and I hope to consolidate on the same tomorrow.

The track for Rendezvous 2006 is going on fine too. Preparation started off sometime in March.

The biggest problem I face is when I have to leave out some song. You see each song ,taken individually, takes around 2-3 hours to mix. That includes ripping it, cutting it, selecting the required portions, mixing them, adding effects, tempos, scratching etc etc .

Now imagine you having to leave 6-7 such songs out of the final mix. It isn’t easy. The worst part is … the final mix isn’t ready yet. Infact, I might just have a brand new track for the finals. I guess it’s back to the drawing board in a while.

Oh and wish me luck for RTOS. I go to battle the day after tomorrow

Goodnight.

A.G

Pondering Into Oblivion

2006-06-03T19:07:00.000+05:30

Failure seldom stops you. What stops you is the fear of failure.

- Jack Lemmon

Excuses are the nails used to build a house of failure

Never walk away from failure. On the contrary,study it carefully -- and imaginatively -- for its hidden assets.

-Michael Korda

Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or your self-confidence.

- Robert Frost

Are you educated?

I've just been thinking about this and more.

Goodnight

A.G

Deliverance

2006-06-02T23:46:00.000+05:30

I've been travelin for some time
With my fishin pole and my bottle of shine
On these long dark dusty roads
Lookin there's nowhere to go
I guess I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way
I gotta hide away, far away
Cause I gotta find a way, to find my way

And one way or another I shall have deliverance.

Sooner or later.
For worse or for better.

Goodnight.
A.G

Halfway Through

2006-06-01T15:17:00.000+05:30

The title represents the state of affairs vis-a-vis my examinations.

I took my S.E test today.

Come to think of it ... I think my examination schedule is pretty much based on the System Development Life Cycle (SDLC).

1. The Requirement Phase - This phase is usually encountered by me during the preparatories that we are allowed before the exams. It is during this period that I start to realise what I have to do in order to get those coveted, and on some occasions elusive - thankfully not for me though, 24 marks.
I ,essentially, draw the line and decide how much of effort I shall have to put in to scrape through.

2. The Analysis Phase - This phase helps me map out my actual schedule for each exam . By schedule I imply actually planning out which chapters are to be done by me , the time taken for each chapter etc etc.

3. The Design Phase - This phase encloses within it's realm the key to attain those "24". This stage involves the actual studying part. It's where I date my books.

4. The Implementation Phase - This phase represents the examination. This is where i actually put to use whatever I have assimilated thus far.

4/5 Transition Phase - Yes, I realise this phase odes not exist within SDLC but I thought it best to mention it. This is THE BONUS ROUND, as I like to call it. This represents the last 5 minutes of the examination. It is during this time that I find my paper almost complete and I proceed to answer the 2 mark questions that I had previously purposely overlooked due the doubt I had housed in my abilities to answer them succintly. Any marks obtained through these few questions are a bonus and , therefore, always welcome.

5. The Post Implementation Phase - This phase occurs when I step out of the hall. It represents the autopsy of the paper.

Ahh ... Life is an SDLC.

Hah.

I think, until the 6th , it's more of a real time operating system.

Adios
A.G

Change Of Plans

2006-05-28T23:55:00.000+05:30

I have my ATM exam on the 30th and I was gearing up for the same today. I had finished 3 chapters by mid morning and I realised I was a little ahead of schedule. It was at this junction that I thought I might rest awhile.
The next time I opened my eyes was when I realised that the shorter arm of the clock was at 8 and the longer one at 12.
Uh oh ... The next 2 hours were marked by a visit to my IP's place and getting my notes in place for the ordeal that was to follow.

I am about to embark upon it tonight.

On a different note, The RDBMS paper could've been cracked by a 5th sem student. It makes me wonder about the sanity of the University authorities. What's the purpose of studying a subject for 6 months (Officially, that is) if nothing based upon it is going to be asked. Offcourse I do not believe it is the way to go for testing somebody's ahem ... knowledge ... but since that is what the University says ( I mean testing someone's knowledge based upon a written exam) why do they not practise what they preach???
It is at this juncture that I find it fit to mention that I ,like most of my colleagues I am sure, am in ,no absolute way, complaining about the lack of germane questions from this semester's syllabus.

Anyways, like always,this is all I choose to share for now. No further for now.
Goodnight
A.G

The Original Bboy

2006-05-27T23:02:00.000+05:30

I've been playing the guitar for most part of the day today. Reminds me of the good ol' days.
Liberating.

In other news, Sodhi was Breakdancing in front of Katani. I am not kidding here. It was authentic too. Serious. Ask him if you choose to. He knows he really was ... breakdancing there.

I've travelled all over Chd today. This and that.

Been pondering a lot.
Again, liberating ...

Goodnight
A.G

Insomnia

2006-05-25T17:41:00.000+05:30

Approximately 16 hours to go before the RDBMS exam commences. Preparation has being going on fine so far.
I haven't slept for well over 24 hours now.

Oh and RDBMS reminds me ...
Now that the Lab is finally over I would like to take this oppurtunity to let it be known that most of X1's passwords in the RDBMS Lab were compromised.

Now you know why your tables kept disappearing mysteriously !!!

Never underestimate the power of Brute Force hacks !

And Anjali ... anju isn't exactly a foolproof password. I was thinking of listing all the user names and passwords for X1 but I have an examination to tackle tomorrow so that is not an feasible option.

If you think this is shocking ... wait till college is over for good. I have some rather startling revelations to make . Muahaha ( Grin's an evil grin and rubs his hands together)

While still on the subject, I discovered yet another Windows security flaw. It enables an administrator (or even a Power user I think) to reset absolutely any Windows password or any other passwords stored in the Windows environment (that includes stuff like your Internet Connection Passwords, Outlook passwords, installed software passwords, Hotmail passwords etc).

Fun.

Here'a repetition of something I've already mentioned in the past. Do NOT access any site requiring your private information in the college premesis.
It isn't the safest of places. Take my word for it. (snicker).

Enough of this.
I have a date with databases that I cannot fail to keep.

Goodnight ( Ironic !)
A.G

A Change of Heart

2006-05-24T21:21:00.000+05:30

I am back !
Atleast for now.

I've been thinking :

Men go to far greater lengths to avoid what they fear than to obtain what they desire.

Just wondering in general.

P.S- @ Chitra ... I know. There are ways of finding out. I shall leave it at that.

Good Night
A.G

Is This Goodbye?

2006-05-22T23:24:00.000+05:30

This might very well be the beginning of the end of this blog.
I look around and all I see is people taking up blogging to make a fashion statement. I find that pathetic. Don't turn this into a popularity contest. PLEASE.

Self expression is dying. On my blog as well I think. It is already dead at most other places.
Worthwhle posts have been on a decline here. Wish I could have the old days back.
People who have no idea of expression have taken to blogging and people who I believe are the ones who should be blogging in the first place don't. You may choose to feel insulted or complimeted. It makes no difference to me. This is directed to most people in general.

The reason why I visit only a select few blogs now is because I do not find anything worthwhile on most blogs. By worthwhile i mean possessing content that is from the heart or genuine or plain old logical facts. Those sort of things. I overlook all these points, though, if I find the language of a particular post, or blog in general, to be specially beautiful and well woven. Rarely have I come across that though.
It's similar to journalism if you look at it. There are very few newspaper (blogs) that have articles (posts) that make sense. That makle you feel like going through them.
I never wished for this blog to be made public. I merely forgot to add code that causes Google's bots not to index this blog so that it doesnt show up in Google's (or any other engine's ) search results.
Ahh... that is my fault though.

I am not planning on quitting blogging completely though. I only plan to post my more serious, and perhaps germane, posts on another blog which shall not be accessed by anyone. No amount of Google searches shall provide any links to it and neither shall I be generous enough to provide anyone with the link to it.
Maybe that way I can maintain some of the sanctity of this art they call blogging.

Offcourse this is still just a thought.
Who knows ... there may be hope for this blog yet.

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have you found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

Goodnight
A.G

Vacation

2006-05-22T22:13:00.000+05:30

I've studied nothing today. That is correct. Nothing. Naught. Zilch. Nix.
My schedule ,though, is still on track !
I have been watching movies all day long and I do not feel any remorse for that.

Oh and if anybody out there is willing to Beta Test Symantec's products (The Norton Series and more) then do let me know.
The Beta Tests are for their 2007 line.
In other news ... I'm finally giving communities like hi5 and orkut some respect. I still cannot fathom how people can spend endless hours on them though.
To each his own.

I shall bid adieu here.
Goodnight, Sleep tight and don't let the bedbugs bite.
A.G

The Final Countdown

2006-05-21T20:53:00.000+05:30

I've been studying by day and partying by night.
Things have balanced them out pretty well till now actually.
I was sure about the partying but the studying part has been taken care of as well.

By partying , here, I imply watching movies at night (on the comp) along with Pepsi and other junk food. I'm taking full advantage of BSNL's happy hours these days ... oops ... I mean nights !

I'm right on schedule for now. You see each time before the exams I plan out my entire schedule. One thing that I always make sure is to include enough time for lying around, wasting time etc.
It makes me feel conmortable ... secure ... that everything's alright. That might be weird but that's just me.

As already mentioned, I have been rewatching the classics lately. The Godfather Trilogy heads the list here. I watch one part a day. Started off with the trilogy yesterday but have been watching motion pictures all week long. This is strange especially when you consider the fact that I'm nowhere near what one would term a movie buff.
It's funny what the exams can cause a person to do or become. Haha.
I guess, though, in my case the exams don't really make much of a difference !!!
Hah. hope you got that. I Doubt if you have.

Goodnight
A.G

The Weekend's Here

2006-05-19T20:03:00.000+05:30

Well, I've held back for very long and I'm going to eb ordering food home after atleast 8 months.
I also plan on having Pepsi/Coke. C'mon one day won't kill me. And it's not like I've sworn off them !
I'm having the world's best tasting chocolate pastry as I type this.
You see the weekend is here and as is now customary with me, I party by myself at night on weekends. That accounts for the initial sentences.
I've been studying SE as well. There's a slight problem though. Everybody whom I've asked for the syllabus has given me a different version and I am obfuscated as a result. There's talk about the exams being postponed but I do not think that that will materialise.

I've stood by my resolution to reduce the time I spend with my beloved machine (read my comp).
Wow ... this pastry really is mindblowing !!!

I plan to watch The Recruit again. Pacino is God.

A thousand Shahrukhs cannot equal him. Period. i'm narrow minded about this so it's no use arguing.

Watch any Pacino flick and then watch the best Shahrukh flick. You shall know the difference.
I know there are going to be Mr> Khan's defenders (most of them females I'll bet) but I shall stick by my stance on this one no matter what.
Only Brando's name should be spoken in the same breath.

Goodnight
A.G

Far Away

2006-05-19T16:38:00.000+05:30

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

The Day So Far

2006-05-18T20:47:00.000+05:30

The datesheet is out.
I'm, therefore, dead.
The exams start form the 26th of this month. I know nothing of SE, RDBMS and RTOS.
The other 3 aren't exactly known to me but atleast things aren't bad as they are in the above mentioned subjects.

I've done 5 chapters of SE so far today and if evrything goes well I should be able to finish off anothet two tonight. However, knowing myself I doubt if that shall happen. I'm surprised I managed to do the 5 I already have !

Been sampling the bass intro of Break Me Shake Me (Savage Garden) today.
Fits well in the larger scheme of things (especially with an increase in the bass frequencies - 200 to be exact). Aah you won't understand !

I've been listening to Hanson a lot lately. Brings back memories ...
If you ever find time, do listen to Penny and Me and Mmmbop. Both are Hanson tracks and beautiful. Both the originals and acoustic versions are breathtaking.

Anyways, I shall bid adieu for now.

Goodnight.
A.G

Mmmbop (Hanson) :

You have so many relationships in this life
Only one or two will last
You go through all the pain and strife
Then you turn your back and they're gone so fast
Oh yeah
And they're gone so fast, yeah
Oh
So hold on the ones who really care
In the end they'll be the only ones there
And when you get old and start losing your hair
Tell me who will still care
Can you tell me who will still care?
Oh care

Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du
Yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du
Yeah

Oh yeah
In an Mmmbop they're gone
Yeah yeah

Plant a seed, plant a flower, plant a rose
You can plant any one of those
Keep planting to find out which one grows
It's a secret no one knows
It's a secret no one knows
Oh, no one knows

Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, ba duba dop
Ba du, yeah
Mmmbop, ba duba dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du bop, Ba du dop
Ba du, yeah

Oh
Yeah oh

In an mmm bop they're gone
Oh yeah oh
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmm bop they're not there
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmm bop they're not there
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmmbop they're not there
In an mmmbop they're gone
In an mmmbop they're not there
Until you lose your hair
Oh
But you don't care

Yeah
Oh yeah oh oh
So hold on the ones who really care
In the end they'll be the only ones there
And hen you get old and start losing your hair
Tell me who will still care
Can you tell me who will still care?
Oh care

Can you tell me? oh
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
You say you can but you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
(Which flower's going to grow?)
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
(If it's going to be a daisy or a rose?)
You say you can but you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
(which flower's going to grow?)
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can you tell me? oh
You say you can but you don't know
Oh yeah
You say you can but you don't know
You dont know
You dont know, oh

Oh
Can u tell me? oh
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can u tell me? oh
You say you can but you don't know
Can u tell me? oh
No you can't 'cause you don't know
Can u tell me?
You say you can but you don't know

The Truth About Fear

2006-05-17T18:08:00.000+05:30

What is fear? An emotion. A strong emotion. A very strong emotion. Despite it's translation as a sign of weakness it is one emotion that has been loyal to mankind all along.

I do not understand why people are ashamed of it?
Everybody has it. Anyone who says they don't are bluffing.

Fear is not a burden we are forced to carry. I choose to interpret it as one of the most potent weapons I posess.

Another thing - One man's fear CAN be another man's object of ridicule. Relax, you needn't lose sleep over that.

Here's my biggest fear - Not being able to look at myself in the mirror at the end of the day ... not being able to forgive myself for something.

I hope you understand what I'm trying to say here.

It is this a single fact that makes me act the way I do a lot of times.
Thankfully, I haven't had to face my greatest fear so far. I believe this is not merely due to luck but due to the fact that I usually try everything within my power to avoid the confrontation and it is to avoid this very confrontation that I am willing to push myself ... beyond my limits ... physical and emotional.

All of us do the same ... subconsciously , most of the times though.

Here's one thing I've realised ... The stronger the fear the better are your chances of excelling. I know this sounds contradictory. Ponder over it. It isn't. If you can justify this statement then you are half way there.

The most common example that comes to my mind right now is the fear of failure. If you look at students the fear of failure (academically) equals flunking the majors. This fear, in turn, drives a student to study for them thus enabling him/her to avoid the flunking. The stronger the fear, the harder the student studies and the greater are his chances of actually learning something and avoiding the dreaded 33% deadline.

I'd love to quote some more examples but I think this one should suffice for now.

Fear is ,in a larger sense, responsible to an extent, in shaping me into who I am today and you know? I am not ashamed of the person I am today. not in the slighest bit.

Thank you, fear. You've been faithful.

A.G

Boring

2006-05-16T16:54:00.000+05:30

The ATM viva was conducted today.
The external invigilator finally showed up at around 1:30 or so.
Her Highness then proceeded with the vivas. Mine went pretty well.
Came home. Have been on the comp as usual.
I plan to waste my time in Chandigarh today.
I plan to watch The Da Vinci Code on the first day of it's release (19th). I only hope to get tickets for the same.
I've been playing Mario Forever on my PC. I don't play games at all,much, though. Roadrash was the last game I was addicted to (on the comp that is). I love my Playstation though. Gran Turismo is amazing. Not to mention the other hundreds of titles ! heh.

Oh and another thing, everybody who's been selected for Infy keeps talking about the pool, the gym, the hostel room etc. I think there's just one tiny little detail they overlooked. THE WORK.

From what I've read up, people don't get enough time to visit the gym even once let alone go there regularly. I believe I shall have to work hard for the first time in my life at Infy. Here's hoping for the best.

Anyways, I must go save the Toadstool Kingdom from the clutches of the evil Koopa. You see he plans to take it over. I'm the only only hope of the Toadstool people.
So long then.
A.G

Spicy Chicken Salad

2006-05-15T23:59:00.000+05:30

Mr. Saini, Mr. Berry and I went for a movie after the viva today. Zarutha. It's a sequel to Jumanji and if you did not like Jumanji then watching this is not advisable.

Another thing that is not advisable is ordering Spicy Chicken Salad at Ruby Tuesdays. Not only will it set you back by Rs. 221 but you shall get a mere handfull, no wait... even less than that, of cheese around which is wrapped the chicken. Not even enough for a mouse. No kidding. The only thing in abundance on the salad plate are the ... leaves... covered in some white fancy sauce. Eating them makes you feel like a cow chewing on cud. Only here, the cud is bitter. Very bitter.
I think inedible is the word.
They charge you for water as well.

Our visit to FR ended here. This was followed by a whirlwind trip to the Railway Station, unexplored parts of Chandigarh and to the Bus Stand. Do not ask me why or how.

We were, however, compensated for our measly lunch by a wholesome dinner. One whole chicken each was consumed by Mr. Berry and I while Messers Jha and Arneja took care of one and another half of it (They could'nt even finish that).

At around 9:30, we found ourselves on a bench in Phase 7 ( the four of us) discussing , funnily, things somehow related to academia. Not in the traditional sense though. More of like ... in a fun way... if that is even possible !!!

I asked my teachers for my internal assessments and, quite shockingly, they look pretty good. I'm ahead of Mr. Gupta in some subjects. A feat rarely achieved by most us, mind you.
What is even more surprising is the fact that the teachers say that all my vivas have gone exceptionally well when I know that I know nothing about anything this sem and almost every answer I have given this time around has been more or less a fluke.

If lady luck is a woman then I think I'm engaged to her right now !

Ok ok that may have been corny but I'm sure you get the general idea.
What if Luck isn't just pure coincidence?
What if there's logic behind it?
What if , instead of luck favouring the brave, favours those who actually try make things happen?
Offcourse, I'm not one of them.
I'm just plain lucky !!!

;)

Kidding.
Lucky and destiny are not decided by fate but our own selves.
The future, its yours, embrace it.

Goodnight
A.G

College on Sundays

2006-05-14T18:05:00.000+05:30

I was out all night with JBSB. We literally went places (Half of Chandigarh included).
Finally ate at Fusion at 12:30 or so. All other eating joints were closed you see.

I finally hit the sack at around 4:00. Was forced to wake up at 10:00 thanks to Sobby; again.
Said he wanted me to come to college with him for Nid's birthday. So that explains why he asked me to order the , in his words " aadha kilo,eggless,chocolate flavoured, heart shaped cake."

Imagine going to college on Sunday ! I guess the free cake and Pepsi compensated for the damages to an extent.

Watched the Live in Texas video again (That's LP , by the way).
Chester's screams are worth the wait.

I have my SE viva tomorrow and I know not a single word. No exaggerations here. I only have a faint idea about the names of the various models. Win-win, Spiral, Cocomo ... Hey I know three names already! Whoopie!!!

I've heard we need to cover ERP, MRP, DFDs, SDLC and the models.
Shouldn't be ahem ... In Mr. Berry's words "Much of a fight".

Anyways, I have just xeroxed IP Kaur's notes. God bless her.

Meri Degree uhde aasre hi chaldi aa.

While still on the topic here's news.
IP is PARANOID when it comes to lizards. She cannot stand the sight of them.
Have you ever seen a female standing on top of a table screaming?
I and Abhinav have !!!

Boy, females sure are weird. REALLY WEIRD !
Thank God I'm male . Haha
Hehe Ok Ok I was kidding.
Everybody has the right to have their own fears.
BUT C'MON..........LIZARDS??
It's strange how women have no problem in waxing their legs threading their brows, ripping the hair right out of their root, not letting out so much as a moan and yet be afraid of lizards, cockroaches et al.

Haha. This is one up for the guys !

Goodnight
A.G

Serendipitous Randomosity

2006-05-13T16:20:00.000+05:30

The title of this post goes out to Mr. Berry.
There... happy???

By the way, I really DID know the meaning of serendipity.

I have just woken up thanks to Sobby's incessant calling.

We are having our external vivas these days. So far so good.

Sodhi's having a bad week so far. Hope the tables turn soon.

I'm startinig to get irritated by Hardy's questions on BitTorrent and Azureus. I've explained the whole concept to him and he keeps asking me the same questions over and over again.

The punk says that he's understood everything and then calls up later asking me the very same questions. Mumble grumble. Somebody's gonna die by my hands and it ain't gonna be pretty. (Wow, my first use of slang on the blog, I think.)

I must leave for now for I have to attend to matters that can no longer be postponed.

Oh and I got a call from Infy. Not bad eh?
Adios
A.G

Echo

2006-05-13T00:12:00.000+05:30

I believe I need to write a lot tonight but I choose not to.

I shall leave with this

Echo - Trapt

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
(Asking why)

I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind

Do I expect to change, the past I hold inside,
with all the words I say,
repeating over in my mind,
somethings you can't erase, no matter how hard you try,
an exit to escape is all there is left to find.

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)

So I close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

Infosys

2006-05-10T22:23:00.000+05:30

That's been the buzz word all day long.

Logical reasoning , here, isn't as easy as you may presume it to be.

English, on the other hand, can prove to be a little too easy.

All in all, if you have brain coupled with commonj sense or tact you should be able to get through.

They say the results are going to be out at around 9:30 P.M . not expecting anything though !

Anywyas, I am pretty much saturated with Infy talk for now (and maybe forever!).

I finally formatted my system today. I had planned to do it last November but procrastination can be a dangerous thing at times.
I shall not go into the reasons for the format here. Just know this - This previously slugging machine is now a gigabyte processing beast. It is unbelievably fast, I mean UNBELIEVABLY !!!

I shall leave it at this for I must go and have fun with my ahem ... beast.
Hah ... bring on the supercomputers ?

Goodnight
A.G

Thinking Up a Title, As Previously Mentioned, Can be Hard.

2006-05-09T22:25:00.000+05:30

Somehow everybody I've been in contact with since morning today is elated for no particular reason.

I love lady's finger.I mean not lady's fingers but the vegetable.

Mom makes the world's greatest chocolate milk, souffle (eat your heart out Arneja), chocolate cake etc etc etc.

You seriously are missing out on something if you haven't tasted any of these.

I hate looking into mirrors. I wonder how women( and quite a few men) are so fond of them.

My 16 bit DOS subsystem is back on track and hotmail's servers don't support relaying restrictions !!!Muahahha.

Here's more info ... The Theory of Relativity rocks .

Aah ... disconnected thoughts.

I had better log off for now.Goodnight.A.G

Playstation 3 and More

2006-05-07T01:11:00.000+05:30

Ok first of all

IP Kaur :
You have an infinite capacity for talking. That may not always be necessarily bad though.
When it comes to talking on the phone, you are the female version of Ashish.

The problem with Rajdeep Singh (Y group) is that he's too busy trying to prove his worthiness to everyone. @ Rajdeep, Where does the buck stop? I think it's about time you decided that.

Moving on.
I'm waiting for PS3. It's going to be released sometime in November since Sony has pushed it's release date back again.

It's going to be Blu Ray enabled.

It's Cell processor has been custom built by IBM.
The cool part here is that it is a vector processor and not your currently immensly popular scalar processors.
This simply means that the "Cell" has the potential to execute several data blocks at once.

Cool.
It is SIMD in nature ( Single Instruction Multiple Data) and packed with a whopping 240 million + transistors. Hell, even the most powerful PC processors might not be able to compare to that.

There is a combo of 8 processors (7 working and 1 as a backup). They're around 3.2 or 3.4 GHz. I do not remember the exact config.

Their hi-fi name is Synergising Processing Elements.

Guess what? It's got Power PC architecture (the same as the Macs).

And now ... the main component that's gonna be responsible for those mega awesome graphicas you're going to be witnessing - The RSX Reality Synthesizer. This is basically the GPU (Graphics Processing Unit) and corresponds to the Emotion Engine that did the work in PS1 and PS2 . Only this time around, the RSX is a little too powerful.

Take my word for it.
It's been developed by NVidia.
The cool part about PS3 is that it is backward compatible with PS1 and PS2. This implies that you can play your older ocnsole games on it as well.

Sony's included support for everything other than a floppy disk in it.

Another greatly anticipated enhancement has been the built in network adapter (Ethernet ? I'm not sure about that). You don't have to purchase it separately.

Now since it has USB support you can interface 8 comtrollers at once !!!

Rocking.

The unveiling of PS3's power was done at E3 2005. (Electronic Entertainment Expo 2005, in case you didn't know.) and it created a storm thanks to the mindblowingly megacool graphics.(RSX - Take a bow).

The PS3 has enough firepower to run any modern computer on it's own.That should give you folks an idea about it's computational power.

I'm sorry I was just too excited about this and I've held this back for a looooooooong time.

I know I promised to keep this blog technically free but I cannot help it sometimes.

Who knows? I might just follow this up with an Xbox explanation !!!
Hah.
Goodnight.
A.G

JSP/JSD

2006-05-05T17:43:00.000+05:30

I found this out today.
JSP/JSD concepts were actually put together by Michael Jackson.

Ok Ok it's not the gloved one. It's some other punk.

Hehe.
I'm off.
Goodnight
A.G

What's This World Coming To?

2006-05-02T21:55:00.001+05:30

Here's breaking news :

Shocked me to the core. No kidding.

Ms. Sarin, Mr. Anand, Ms. Sehmbey (Some of the big guns of our class ) and many many more in our class do not know how to create user accounts in Windows.

Holy Mother of God !!!

In addition to this , most people in class do not know the meaning of the words "wicked (!)" and "ambience".

Of what use is bookish knowledge if you know nothing about your field , about how things actually come together in the real world? How things practically function.

It's not like making user accounts in Windows is complicated or even remotely close to that.

I only wish to drive home the point that if you (the person reading this) do not have the answer to this question then I hope , for humanity's sake, that you are not related, directly or indirectly, to computers or information technology or wait ... to anything technical.

Among all the people surveyed (and they were quite a few) only 2 females (Ms. Aditi Pal and Ms. Manpreet - Jivesh's better half) and 1 male (Mr. Amardev Singh) had the answer to this question.

Most (but not all ) people from class were asked this.

Moving on to the meanings of the words.

Almost nobody knows what wicked and ambience mean.

Is this just me or is the world really filled with idiots?

The ones who did know the meanings to these words were Ms. Aditi Pal, Ms. Manpreet, Mr. Amardev Singh (I gave him the benefit of doubt for ambience though) Ms. Sarin ( I didn't ask her for I could not find her at that time but I assure you that it can safely be assumed that she knows what they mean).
I also expect Mr. Anand to be familiar with the words. I hope the same holds true for Ms. Sehmbey as well.

Now, the general feeling in class, nowadays, is that everybody wants to be placed in a good company (Congratulations Sunish and Ripu, by the way).

So we all want to be placed in a good company when we know nothing about what programming languages really are or what the basic concepts of ANYTHING are.

In IP Kaur's words Company vaale to humari ukhaad denge

But seriously ... would you hire you?

Your answer to this question should set the ball rolling.

I am reminded of a line from The Rime Of The Ancient Mariner here :

Water water everywhere and not a drop to drink

I hereby rechristen (Please tell me you know what this means. If you don't then just pretend you do for now. I cannot take any more shocks for today.) ... anyways as I was saying ... I hereby rechristen the above line as :

Idiots Idiots everywhere and not a brain to think.

Here's some more truth.

Most people in class have never used a pen drive.
Most people in class have never even seen one.
Most people in class do not know how to install an Operating System; ANY Operating System.

Most people in class have passwords to their messanger, email, Oracle accounts (etc) that can very easily be cracked. (Take my word for it ;) )

Mostr people do not know who Craig Barrett is.
Most people in class cannot create a bootable disk.
Most people in class have never seen/used a zip drive.
Most people in class think Opera is a form of art related to music (If they know the meaning of Opera in the first place).

Most people in class do not know the difference between a virus and a worm.

I can go on and on with this list but I hope you get the general idea.
Please please please make me eat my words.
Please prove me wrong.
I'm begging you.

It is apt here to mention that I am no tech guru. Heck, I'm not even close but rest assured I can definitely answer questions related to creating user accounts in Windows !!!

Another thing that I would like to mention here is that I did not intend to insult any of you (the people mentioned in this post). I can only hope you take this in the right vein and that this post serves as a window to where we really stand with respect to our current technical pursuits.

Many of you may take an offence to this.
If you do then you fall in the category of "Most people" mentioned in the post.
Offcourse, this does not imply that if you do not take offence to this then you don't get included in that bracket but I'm sure you get the idea.

I personally believe that Most People, here, includes around 95% (or more) females and 80-85% males (or more !!!) in class.
That's the way the cookie crumbles.
In Ms. Sarin's words, No Hard Feelings ...

Goodnight
A.G

Viva Season

2006-05-01T18:12:00.000+05:30

Yes folks, it's here.
Had RDBMS and IBS today. Both went surprisingly well especially when you consider the fact that I know zilch about both subjects.
ATM is up next. If the viva is file based then the viva should be a piece of cake. If not , well... things might just be a little different.
Might go for a movie tonight.
Let's see.

Listening to Lucky Love - Ace of Base

Goodnight
A.G

Assignments, Vivas and More

2006-04-30T11:27:00.000+05:30

I have to submit 10 assignments tomorrow and prepare for the RDBMS and IBS vivas as well.

I have completed none of these tasks so far.

Must ... fight ....urge ... to do nothing.......

Gotta go work for a change.

A.G

Kya Khoya Kya Paaya

2006-04-28T22:58:00.000+05:30

I've lived in the past for most of the day today.

I think I'm inclining towards the notion that if I could change a few things about it I would.

It's just an inclination so far. No regrets though.

In other news, I'm back to listening to punk.
Yowza look who's alive !

Goodnight
A.G

Farewell

2006-04-27T21:31:00.000+05:30

The title explains my day to an extent. Had the farewell for our seniors today.

Here's a fact :

I HATE COMPERING.

I HATE IT, I HATE IT, I HATE IT. $%&^%^&%*^&*^*&(

Sigh ... much better !

The dance was ordinary at best. Nothing to write home about as usual.

Dhruv danced on stage for the first time. I hope it isn't the last time. Admittedly, you can't be perfect the first time but if you persist you're bound to improve.

Had free Coke at the farewell so I'm not complaining much !

I think it would be apt to mention why I chose Wicked as the title for my previous post.
You see Mr. Arneja and I were discussing an incident that occured in WOTC class in the third semester. The teacher had asked the class the meaning of the world wicked and more than half of the class drew a blank face. At this juncture Sariya (who was sitting right next to me in class that time ) remarked Oye wicked matlab clever nah?

Anyways, a few laughs later Mr. Arneja said Vaise ehda matlab darpok (or something to that effect - i.e nowehere even close to the real meaning !) hunda hai nah.

No further comments !!!

Anyways, I see peril in my life within the next month or two. It shall strike multiple times.
I can feel it.

Just got off the phone. Damn it's started already.
Anyways, enough of this.

Goodnight
A.G

Wicked

2006-04-26T22:46:00.000+05:30

Have had a weird day. Started off well. Ended ...well... umm... not so well.

So we have our final year's farewell tomorrow and I have to compere and dance inter alia.
I do not know what all will be included within the realm of inter alia though.

I hold Mr. Arneja as the sole party responsible for my fate today.
He drove a car, my car, for the first time and almost crashed within the first 30 seconds.

He isn't coming to college tomorrow so all his duties have been shifted to Yours Truly.

Anyways, I still have to submit my RDBMS assignment . I do not , however, understand one thing.
I have checked this with our teacher. The attendence register says I have submitted all assignments, save the last one, so far when in reality I have submitted only 1 out of them.

So miracles really do happen !!!

I'd love to go into the details but I do nto wish to go through it again.
PASS.

Gotta teach Sobby the steps for tomorrow.
Forgive me if I do not make much sense. (But then again, I rarely do, if ever.)

Goodnight
A.G

Virtual Memory Management by Windows

2006-04-23T23:06:00.000+05:30

I've finally understood how dll files interact with Windows executables.
How code redundancy is avoided and how virtual memory is actually managed by the Operating System.

Figured out how dll s are actually linked to executables.
Guess what?
Windows provides the virtual memory feature by giving each program (and it's instances) unique numbers (Handles in VC++) instead of directly alloting them addresses in memory. That , in turn, enables Windows to move the data and code segments around in the main memory.It cannot, however, cannot delete the data segment although the code segment may be done away with in case new code need to be introduced into the memory from the executable and the current segment no longer fulfils the programs functional criteria.This implies that whenever Windows needs to move a program to a different block in memory, it simply has to alter the program handle in an internal table that it maintains and the changes in the actual physical address are automatically reflected in the table as well.

This also explains the working of SQL injection attacks to a great extent.

Windows is finally going to be moving it's graphics subsystem out of the kernel.
This implies increased stability since the GDI is no longer going to be in Ring 0. This might make Vista a little slow but I think the additional security will more than compensate for that since more than 95% of inherent Windows crashes occur due to a GDI failure.
Yippie !!!
Moreover, Vista won't be supporting EFI booting.

Technology can be fun. If you want it to be, that is.
Hah.
Sorry, I had nothing to talk about so I thought I might as well bore you with things you couldn't care less about.

Goodnight
A.G

Poison ...

2006-04-23T15:28:00.000+05:30

Well I've opened up my veins too many times
And the poison's in my heart and in my mind
Poison's in my bloodstream
Poison's in my pride
I'm after rebellion
I'll settle for lies.

Is it any wonder that my mind's on fire
Imprisoned by the thoughts of what to do
Is it any wonder that my joke's an iron
And the joke's on you.

Experiments that failed too many times
Transformations that were too hard to find
Poison's in my bloodstream
Poison's in my prideI'm after rebellion
I'll settle for lies

A.G

Irrelevant Comments

2006-04-23T00:42:00.000+05:30

I have to take a potentially life changing decision within the next few hours. Nobody other than one person has given me any opinion on it so far. Could've used some. Ahh what isn't meant to be, isn't meant to be.

It's funny how you can feel emptiness even in the middle of a crowd. How you can feel left out when maybe you never really fitted in in the first place.

All you see is life passing you by. What do you do when you need a helping hand and all you see is your own reflection?
What if nobody even knows you even need one?

I foresee major changes in store for me in the coming time period. Mentally. Emotionally. Personally. I decline to state it's length for now.

Change is approaching. Fast. And I'm waiting ...
With arms wide open ...

A.G

Thinking of a Title Can Be Cumbersome

2006-04-21T01:16:00.000+05:30

Parhelion 2006 has just concluded.
I've moderately seriously injured myself again(twice in a week and it's the other leg this time).
The reason for my current state is the same formation. Only this time I was tossed up around 8 feet or so instead of the 3 feet at the Annual function and the 7 feet in the college basement. Fell flat on the floor with a BANG. Dont know how I managed to stay on stage for the next 7 minutes.
Anyways, finally gave a decent performance of MJ. Nothing to write home about but it's decent especially when you compare it to the crap that we did at our annual function.
We were asked to give a special guest performance for the chief guest. In return we were offered soft drinks ( as many as we wanted) along with lunch and "Any other facilities", free of cost offcourse.
Free soft drinks !!!! I'd sell my soul for that . Hahah
Another team from ETC approached me and Mani. They want us to do a video of some sort. I do not know much about this as yet and I do not wish to go into any details. It sounds lame.
Went to the lake as usual after that.

On a different note, I believe our new RDBMS teacher resembles Inderpreet Kaur's elder sister.
While still on the subject, I have not yet come to terms with the fact that I have submitte donly one RDBMS assignment but our teacher's register says I've submitted all of them.
Hmm ...
It's Friday tomorrow (Oops, I mean today) and we have lectures all day so I guess I had better go to sleep.
On second thought, It's almost 2:00 A.M and my happy hours are about to begin. Might as well put them to use.
Goodnight
A.G

Gone,Going,Gone

2006-04-18T17:07:00.000+05:30

Elation surrounds me.
Thank you God. You know why ;)

Anyways, nothing much happened in college today. Had to give a presentation on hacking today (which had completely slipped my mind)
Couldn't even cover half the points. Didn't have enough time.
Anyways, I have nothing to write about as usual.

Should I? Shouldn't I?
That is the question.

I must go for I have to watch House of Wax right now.
Adios.
A.G

Swordfish

2006-04-18T00:21:00.000+05:30

It's 12:30 A.M and I've just returned from Jha and Jassi's PG. I was invited to a Chicken and Coke party which was to begin at 10:00. I arrived in time only to discover that nothing was ready. The chicken was still uncooked and I could see no signs of it being in my stomach anytime soon. To make a long story short, I spent approximately 2 hours by myself (Time well spent, by the way). The meal was had. The caretaker is drunk. Jha is still there sitting beside him listening to him ramble and probably offering consolations or advice.

Everybody there loves their cell phones more than life itself.

I plan to watch Swordfish before I sleep, that is IF I sleep at all. I love hacker involved movies !

Feel like talking. Nobody's listening.
Ahh I'd better watch the movie instead.

Still listening to Everytime - Britney (Hahah I can see the smirk on Harkaran's face.) This is just a one off song of hers that I like. She's your's Harkaran !!! ;)

Goodnight.
A.G

Don't Let Life Get You Down

2006-04-17T00:35:00.000+05:30

We used to stage plays at Tagore Theater back in school.
I just remembered a song from on of the plays titled 'Smike' .

Here are the Lyrics :

Don't Let Life Get You Down

People think they see a mountain

but it's just a little hill.

And the problems that surround them

are just the mood they feel

Coz dangers int he darkness are only in your mind

Better keep your eyes wide open look around

Don't let life get you down

Even though the world might let you down

Coz dangers in the darkness are only in your mind

Better keep your eyes wide open look around

Don't let life get you down

If you think that you're a loser

you're never going to win

You'll never change your situation

unless you think and then begin

Coz dangers in the darkness

are only in your mind

Better keep your eyes wide open look around

Don't let life get you down

Even though the world might let you down

Coz dangers in the darkness are only in your mind

Better keep your eyes wide open look around

Don't let life get you down

Goodnight, Again.
A.G

Plans

2006-04-17T00:09:00.000+05:30

Everybody says we have mass bunk on Monday. I damn well know the reason behind this. Pretty pathetic , but I have now reached a point where I no longer care if it is or isn't.

In the words of Christ -

Father forgive them for they know not what they do.

Things have been getting a little too weird , even for me.
I've been listening to Kylie (On a night like this ) and Spears (Everytime).
Something must be terribly wrong!!!

I plan to read all day tomorrow.

I plan to watch a movie tomorrow.

I plan to attend class in the evening tomorrow.

I plan to eat burgers from sector 36 tomorrow.

I plan to not sit in front of the comp for more than 4 hours tomorrow.

I plan not to think too much tomorrow.

I plan to make plans tomorrow.
Big ones.

I plan to put the demons of my past behind me tomorrow.

I plan to unravel the mystery of SQL injections tomorrow.

I plan to go to the lake all by myself tomorrow.

Maybe I'll just spend time with myself as usual. I could use someone to talk to !

May the force be with you. (and me most of all - I need a break, badly).

Goodnight.
A.G

Skip This

2006-04-16T16:05:00.000+05:30

I have nothing to write about right now. Yes, there are issues that I might address but I do not feel like it.
I'm listening to Long way to the top (AC/DC).
Been watching a lot of Seinfeld lately.
Feel like doing something. Gonna be going for a movie with Jha, Jassi and Sobby.
Kharar is on Wed and Thur.
Saw the unofficial Vista video. Yes, it really is pathetic.
Oh, before I forget ...

Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee do NOT send me forwarded mails. I hate them as much as I hate my subjects this semester, if not more.
I never read them so why bother sending them?

Most of Himesh Reshamiya's songs are worthless.

Ruchika Mahajan doesn't believe me when I tell her that I can actually speak and read punjabi.

Ruchika Mahajan doesn't even believe me when I tell her I eat golgappas.

It's funny how people don't take my word for a lot of stuff.

Those people are gonna be sorry.

I'm no angel. I'm not even close.

The sooner you realise it the better.

I'd love to write more but I think Satan's calling me.

Coming ...

Hah.
A.G

The Gaul

2006-04-15T23:31:00.000+05:30

I love Asterix.

If anyone reading this shares this interest of mine then do let me know.